happy holidays..

In a way I'm sort of, kinda, maybe, happy that I lost my job.. just because holidays is the worst time to work at retail. Crazy customers, tons of them, & knowing myself, I'll probably snap.. but on the other note, I'm feeling better now just a little cold and coughing here and there. Thank goodness, I thought I would never get better. On the other hand, Christmas day, went to my grandparent's place just to get together, open my presents.. Tons of clothes, camera, printer (weird)lol, perfume, pajamas, chocolates, money, gift cards, and all that other shinanigans.. & sad that we didn't get to spend Christmas with the other side of the family, but it's okay, hoping that we will spend New Years with them. Boxing day was such a crazy day, tons & tons of people, thanking god that I didn't work lol.. Went to Eatons with Jeric, walked around because there's no way I could go shopping with that much people, ate, loaft loaft loaft, met up with Jizelle, James, Andrew, Laurence, & Ero.. went to Nathan, we were supposed to go skating but we didn't have skates & the renting place was closed, so we just loafted.. Around 11 we left and went back to Sauga, the car ride home was harsh, 4 people in the back when the back is only meant for 2... but it's okay, it was worth it.. Then decided to go to Silver Tips to play pool, saw Jonnie, Cate, Edward, Julius, & Matthew. It was Jonnie's birthday and i gave him the biggest hug i could lol. So that was that, I was happy that i finally seen my friends after 10 years of being sick. Saturday, stayed home and woke up at 6pm for some reason.. I realized that i fucked up my sleeping pattern, damn. Now i have to work hard to put it back to normal.. And today, met up with Uncle Ely at downtown with my family, went shopping, ate at Hard Rock, walked around, went home.. but before going home went to Yorkdale first to go shopping for more.. Then now home sweet home ..

I can't wait for New Years, New Years - New Danielle

- ds

for its christmas time once again,
time we celebrate our greatest friends ..
time full of wonder, season of glory

so today was my grandma's birthday.. woke up extra early just to go there, to what get bugged by my little cousins. oh well, i don't get to see them much so it's okay.. must i say that apple with caramel sauce is the best.. ended up watching mamma mia, it was a so so movie..

weather is such a downer & i miss everyone..

for it's christmas time once again ..

How come every time Christmas comes there's either something wrong or i'm sad.. I would have thought that this Christmas is going to be different. I was so excited few weeks ago when i saw lights and just felt the christmas aura in the air.

Two years ago something terrible happened during Christmas, i wont get too dramatic but to put it in short words.. Something just went wrong with everyone including my family, so i was forced to spend two christmases sad knowing that i can't spend it with everyone in my family... especially the really close people that kept my feet on the ground. And now here i am once again spending christmas with sadness.

I lost my job, I don't have everyone in my family, I'm sick, theres more that i can't say.. but what else could go wrong? I know that other people have it way worst than i do, & don't get me wrong I am thankful for that..

I just want to know how I can make everything go my way even just for a minute.. I miss being happy just like when I was a kid when my only problem was getting my mom to buy me that toy i saw in the store..

I just wish ..


- ds

trust no one but myself..

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one word: SICK as a motherfrikkin dog. i havent updated because for the whole weekend i was on my bed resting. i couldn't even afford to stand for 2 minutes without feeling dizzy. but thank god i feel much better now.

it all started on friday at school, when i felt like shit! in english class i felt like my head was breaking in half, and still went downtown to chill with the jerk. but all in all that was fun, i ran into kevinmichael, john russel, and kevin lorzano. i missed those fags.. ate at korean grill, went shopping, walked around in the cold, etc.. and special shout to laurence, ero, & ryan for picking me up all the way from dt.

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Like what I said I was probably not going to be able to update as much .. So, now i finally got the time to update, this week has been so hectic serious. My everyday routine has always been school, nap, work. school, nap, work. over and over again.. Finally a day off. So this week what happened ? nothing.. lol, oh ran in to Danny Nguyen on Tuesday, i swear he always catches me crappy looking and tired lol. Had two tests today during Math & English, and i failed lol. Other than that, that's bout it =]

Quote of the day:
In order to get what you want
You have to know what you deserve

I dont think imma be able to update as much anymore, just because im always busy. but i'll try my best. my day was boring, slept in and went to school at fourth, its becoming a habit .. i need to stop lol

QUOTE OF THE DAY
it's because people have this determined belief that things will always work themselves out in the end, that if you tough out the rough shit, the pieces will always fall where you want them to; it was just a matter of patience. as if life is testing how bad you really want it. you endure the brutal winter for a bountiful spring, right? but see where that line of thinking had gotten her? sometimes patience has nothing to do with it. and sometimes, no matter how much you tough it out, you're not supposed to, and the pieces will absolutely not fall where you fucking want them to

When you reach into a box of Lucky Charms, you know there's a prize in the Bottom. When you miss the King of the World scene in Tiantic, you can rewind it. You can fast forward through when Simba's dad dies in the Lion King. But in life, if you miss something, you miss it. You can't go back. Sometimes you take all the right chances, say all the right things, and you still end up right back where you started. Happiness is not free, even though everyone says it is. Really, think about it. Something bad has to happen for you to realize how much you appreciate what you have now, to truly be happy. You won't know what the sunshine feels like unless you've been in the dark for a while. The people you love the most are the ones that end up hurting you the most. Life bites, and there are no guarantees, but somehow it always ends up giving you this great feeling when everything's said and done

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So today, my chance to update this.. First period was just chilling, my whole class went to the co-op presentation, and I saw the cutest white guy I have ever seen in my life, he looks like Leonardo Di Caprio, but sexier and younger. Third period I showed jasmine and she said he was hot too. Fourth, I finally got over my presentation with charmayne, which took like 10 minutes & it was supposed to be 20. But it's whatever, Cory was being smart again bout "oh ya you did your thing" sure lol. My english class is I think yet the livest class this semester just because we treat our teacher like shit, I kinda feel bad but whatever. I went to work at 5:00, ate like a whole bag of m&m's lol. And I'm proud of myself for staying home today lol.

QUOTE OF THE DAY
sometimes it's right to do the wrong thing

wow, i havent updated in such a long time.. well not really but its still 5 days. so friday what did i do? it was ryan's birthday. after work i just went home because arlene's jam was cancelled. was bored but didn't mind because i was mad tired anyways saturday: during the morning i met up with athina, to go help me buy a present for my secret santa, at work.. went home again, and waited until 6 to pick up athina from work then, walked to arlene's that was such a long fun walk just because lol. and i proved to myself that i can't multi-task.. no hope. hah, anyways then we ended up driving to pho thanks to laurence for the ride. decided to go around until james was finish with his staff meeting until 9:30. congrats to him btw for getting his job at green earth. then ended up going to amc, then lakeshore and around to sauga road to look at pretty sexxy houses, then ended up at timmies. that was prolly it. sunday home all day. monday, went to school & did my project for the whole night cuz supposedly we had a presentation on tuesday. tuesday slept in until 3rd period, went to school. and didn't even end up presenting. no point. im glas i got to eat taco bell for some reason i've been craving it lol. and ran into danny nguyen today :) i love him.


QUOTE OF THE DAY
aspire to inspire before you expire

I CAN DO THIS..

so today um civies day, it was an okay one.. Didn't really pay attention to it just because i'm stressing on other things too.. I didn't even see jizelle, like how wierd was that .. maybe because i was late ? but uhh my page is asking for a new layout maybe if i have time tonight i could do it ? lol. James's eyebrow piercing turned out to be okay, i thought it was going to be ugly and i was going to laugh at his face lol. other than that all i'm focused on is finishing my booklet on alt-ed, and my big english project. must i say i kinda love my english class. aha but i hate the teacher. it's ryan's birthday tomorrow, i wonder what we're doing .. kay i should stop, this post doesn't even make sense, can't wait to get over all these prjects.

QUOTE OF THE DAY:

DRAW A LINE
& LIVE ABOVE IT

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i don't stand for your shit.

I'm going somewhere in life, I've got dreams to reach & things to do. Don't bring your drama into my life because, shit, I got my own. I'm done with letting people bring me down, & I'm not taking any bullshit from anyone. I'm my own person, not no one else's bitch. I'm down for people who are down for me. If you don't know me, don't act like you do because I've got enough people in my life to keep me going. Don't go running your mouth about me because you don't know shit about me. Don't believe the shit others tell you, believe things you hear on your own. Be your own damn self & who cares what others say about you. It's not like they're living your life for you. Don't stand for peoples shit because they're just going to cause more pain in your life. I'm going to succeed because I don't stand for your shit

TACOBELL.

so today, woke up late .. like always lol, and actually finished getting ready on time until i realized my mom was not home to drop me off. so i had to rush my ass then while waiting for james, wondering if i should go to school or not. until i finally got sick of waiting for him and decided to call him, but he was still asleep. it made me think if i should really go or stay home, but i just had to go.. i couldn't afford to make it a bad habit of mine. jasmine drove me for the first time today, and ate taco bell yumm. may i say that tamara's car is very sexxy lol. then after school, waited for jizelle & james, we were supposed to go to sq. but we decided that we wanted to go to athina's house, we walked under the wet snow it was so yucky lol my feet were freezing. half way through, we decided to not go anymore and just head home.. so we took the long way home. lol its kay, after school can you guys believe that i frikking worked out, WORK OUT. lol since my mother signed up for a membership for YMCA, i figured it wouldn't hurt to work out for at least two hours, but it did hurt .. lol

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
people change for two reasons: they either
learn enough so that they want to or they
hurt enough so that they just have to

^that goes out to a very special person
in my life named HERVIE you already know im proud
of you for 'changing' like what you said. i beleive in you
i always knew you could do it : )

honeypeppers.

So what to put on this post.. basically I guess my weekend? so Saturday: my original plan was to pick up athina at sq. after her interview at broadway but sadly it didn't happen because i woke up late =P so she ended up picking me up around 2, we then headed to jizelle's house, while waiting for people we thought that we were hungry aha, and wanted to go do something, round 4 we thought we wanted to go to sherway but figured that if we do go, it would be closed by the time we get there.. so we ujst decided to mission all the way to eastgate, we were bored & hungry. we decided hat we were going to make a youtube account aha. called HONEYPEPPERS because we got our food from a place named honeypepper. mmhm. anyways i shall show you guys our first video..



lol. we're retards like that, but before that we helped jizelle with her photoshoot for her project. ill post up the pics when she have them ready. but other than that the rest of the day was spent watching russel peters. "take it & go... im still pissed at the fact that i couldnt watch twilight ...
so today, SUNDAY: woke up at 2, lol. And, i spent my day cleaning. i still need to do my work cited page & still waiting for charmayne to go online..

secret time ?

Hmm, so today was a so-so day.. I wasn't even supposed to do anything after school but meeh. Got bored so decided to chill with klaudine. So we got to my house, and changed, kinda frustrated cuz I didn't get my daily nap. Went to klaudine's place and did i mention that i love her camera, even though it's heavy i still love it lol [i'm prolly gunn post up pics soon]. it was mad COLD outside, that i thought my nose & my ears were gunn fall off lol. Kinda wierd because I thought I saw Cruz across the street so texted and asked him if that was him. We got to square and Klaudine got a call lol, i knew then who it was.. So we met up with Cruz that was at square and on his way home chilled with him for a bit, i can't say the rest. Only him, klaudine, & I know =] lol. but it's whatever. Went out to dinner, drove around and got home. I'm too tired. and I can't believe i missed twilight, but whatever there's still next time.

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
do not conform any longer to the pattern of this
world, but be transformed by the renewing of your
mind. then you will be able to test and approve
god's will- his good, pleasing and perfect will.
- romans 12:2

SUCKA FOR SLOWJAMS.

MY LAYOUT + MY SONG = DOESN'T GO TOGETHER hahah. but its whatever, today ? uh slept in the whole day cuzi didnt feel like going to school. ( N ) i was too lazy.HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY: figuring out how to transfer music from iPod to the computer, yay .. after 10 years..
+ I had the wierdest dream today, getting chased & stalked by someone and i was going crazy because i couldn't escape. hah

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
Forgive & forget. That`s what they say. It`s good advice, but it`s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled; old wounds never heal. & the most we can hope for, is that one day we`ll be lucky enough to forget.

S N O W.

SNOW? yes i was expecting it to come soon, but not this soon.. its too soon, i'm not ready for winter coats, toques, boots, & gloves. just like when i came home the other day with my eyes open wide with what i saw ..



a frikking CHRISTMAS TREE
standing at the corner of my living room, so much ran through my head.. the thought of what i should buy the special people, what i should buy my mother since i havent gotten her anything for her birthday, what i should buy my little cousins that deserves the best from me, and just the thought of being broke. hah, so many gifts yet so little time ? hmm. but really what i should be thinking about is taking care of myself, since no else will, and i can't depend on anyone but me..

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speaking of other things, today was a pretty hectic day. at least i got a 45 minute nap before heading to work. other than that, i just wanna stress that people these days has to know what they want > that goes out to a person that starts with an H. im not trying to be a bitch, but the things you do to me is just out of control, im a person with feelings. you cant tell me what you want whenever you want it. / and to the people that are not having a good day, don't bring your anger out on other people. they have problems too, you just don't know it.

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oh and last thing.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GIRL JASMINE SORIANO

biggest hater alive =] lol, i love you .. im proud of
you .. goodluck on your g2 tmrw =]. i know you'll get it

(8)nothing feels right when im not with you(8)- tshirt : shontelle

For some odd reason, that song has been stuck in my head for quite awhile now and honest truth i have no clue why. That line right there, it's stupid because EVERYTHING feels right when i'm not with you. You may call me rude & selfish but you did this to me, you're the reason why i'm like this. Don't get me wrong but im so thankful you did this to me, it made me a better person. & to every girl out there, if you ever feel that nothing feels right when you're not with him, it's stupid because.. you made it without him, and you still can, and you always will be able to

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so back to my regular days, hmm what did i do today? as usual effin boring, went to school. tried not falling asleep in class. did my eyebrows ( finally after 4586738 years ). went to terms to meet up jocelyn while i was with the bestfriend. went home while talking to jeric. thats bout it.
highlight of the day: COLLEGE APPLICATION
fml, highschool life is almost finished, i'm somewhat excited but i'm also scared. there's so much more to life than this.

rainy days ..

wow whatta weekend: FRIDAY- p.a. day, supposed to spend time with klaudine but couldn't because i had to help my mom clean the whole house, i couldn't even take my daily nap just because i had work right after.. supposed to get picked up by my friends after work but *coughcough* someone left me lol. so i had to bus myself to jizelle's house under the rain, but before all that i ran into kuya philip i miss that doode. back to my story, i was said that they we're going to wait for me at the bus stop, i got off the bus and no one was there, i got a call saying lawrence was going to pick me up, half way through of me walking, under the rain. i see all these guys and making me walk back again, because they had to buy chasers. which triggered my sickness lol. but other than that, i wanna say thanks to jeric for keeping me company : ) & staying on the phone with me on my way there. over all that night was fun, special thanks to mike for kind of teaching me how to drive a shift stick :) lol. and big ups to kyle & his car ( = it was too cool. may i mention that honey garlic flavoured chicken wings are bomb. lol, thanks to jizelle & lawrence for opening their house for everyone that night, over all it was fun.

SATURDAY: i woke up with lucky's call at 11, but i ended up going back to sleep just because i had a little hangover. then jeric woke me up around 1:00 being shocked that i was still sleeping. lol, overall from the time i woke up til the time i slept, i was talking with jeric.. but one lesson was learned, to be thankful for what i have. that was such an eye opening conversation jeric.

SUNDAY: so today, i woke up at 1 again sincei was til 3 lol. and i had to buy ink & contact lenses. i finally finished my project, thanks ero for not printing my stuff lol jks, its all good. other than that everything else was boring ..


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dee.

MMMHM

so its 12:27 already, no school yay. but for some reason instead of waking up jolly, i woke up cranky. i didn't really sleep properly last night just because. whatta friday. now i have to clean my room just because i feel like i havent for such a long time. plus fam jam tomorrow for mom's birthday. then i have work at 6 which sucks balls. then nicole's jam.. hopefully the rest of the day will get better

one word.

drunkkkkkkk

NOOOOB.

so what the eff ? since everyone have this thing i figured i should start, since i'm bored anyways.. i don't even know how to use this thing lol. but ill figure it out eventually.

BIG UPS TO KLAUDINE FOR FIXING IT FOR ME :)
love you person :)

IM GETTING AT IT

so i think im finally getting used to this lol and now i dont know what to write, basically today was tiring.. went to school, went home with klaudine, went to sq to meet with athina, went to go chill with cruz for a bit, then driving school.. no life.. and the weather is a downer