happy holidays..

In a way I'm sort of, kinda, maybe, happy that I lost my job.. just because holidays is the worst time to work at retail. Crazy customers, tons of them, & knowing myself, I'll probably snap.. but on the other note, I'm feeling better now just a little cold and coughing here and there. Thank goodness, I thought I would never get better. On the other hand, Christmas day, went to my grandparent's place just to get together, open my presents.. Tons of clothes, camera, printer (weird)lol, perfume, pajamas, chocolates, money, gift cards, and all that other shinanigans.. & sad that we didn't get to spend Christmas with the other side of the family, but it's okay, hoping that we will spend New Years with them. Boxing day was such a crazy day, tons & tons of people, thanking god that I didn't work lol.. Went to Eatons with Jeric, walked around because there's no way I could go shopping with that much people, ate, loaft loaft loaft, met up with Jizelle, James, Andrew, Laurence, & Ero.. went to Nathan, we were supposed to go skating but we didn't have skates & the renting place was closed, so we just loafted.. Around 11 we left and went back to Sauga, the car ride home was harsh, 4 people in the back when the back is only meant for 2... but it's okay, it was worth it.. Then decided to go to Silver Tips to play pool, saw Jonnie, Cate, Edward, Julius, & Matthew. It was Jonnie's birthday and i gave him the biggest hug i could lol. So that was that, I was happy that i finally seen my friends after 10 years of being sick. Saturday, stayed home and woke up at 6pm for some reason.. I realized that i fucked up my sleeping pattern, damn. Now i have to work hard to put it back to normal.. And today, met up with Uncle Ely at downtown with my family, went shopping, ate at Hard Rock, walked around, went home.. but before going home went to Yorkdale first to go shopping for more.. Then now home sweet home ..

I can't wait for New Years, New Years - New Danielle

- ds

for its christmas time once again,
time we celebrate our greatest friends ..
time full of wonder, season of glory

so today was my grandma's birthday.. woke up extra early just to go there, to what get bugged by my little cousins. oh well, i don't get to see them much so it's okay.. must i say that apple with caramel sauce is the best.. ended up watching mamma mia, it was a so so movie..

weather is such a downer & i miss everyone..

for it's christmas time once again ..

How come every time Christmas comes there's either something wrong or i'm sad.. I would have thought that this Christmas is going to be different. I was so excited few weeks ago when i saw lights and just felt the christmas aura in the air.

Two years ago something terrible happened during Christmas, i wont get too dramatic but to put it in short words.. Something just went wrong with everyone including my family, so i was forced to spend two christmases sad knowing that i can't spend it with everyone in my family... especially the really close people that kept my feet on the ground. And now here i am once again spending christmas with sadness.

I lost my job, I don't have everyone in my family, I'm sick, theres more that i can't say.. but what else could go wrong? I know that other people have it way worst than i do, & don't get me wrong I am thankful for that..

I just want to know how I can make everything go my way even just for a minute.. I miss being happy just like when I was a kid when my only problem was getting my mom to buy me that toy i saw in the store..

I just wish ..


- ds

trust no one but myself..

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one word: SICK as a motherfrikkin dog. i havent updated because for the whole weekend i was on my bed resting. i couldn't even afford to stand for 2 minutes without feeling dizzy. but thank god i feel much better now.

it all started on friday at school, when i felt like shit! in english class i felt like my head was breaking in half, and still went downtown to chill with the jerk. but all in all that was fun, i ran into kevinmichael, john russel, and kevin lorzano. i missed those fags.. ate at korean grill, went shopping, walked around in the cold, etc.. and special shout to laurence, ero, & ryan for picking me up all the way from dt.

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Like what I said I was probably not going to be able to update as much .. So, now i finally got the time to update, this week has been so hectic serious. My everyday routine has always been school, nap, work. school, nap, work. over and over again.. Finally a day off. So this week what happened ? nothing.. lol, oh ran in to Danny Nguyen on Tuesday, i swear he always catches me crappy looking and tired lol. Had two tests today during Math & English, and i failed lol. Other than that, that's bout it =]

Quote of the day:
In order to get what you want
You have to know what you deserve

I dont think imma be able to update as much anymore, just because im always busy. but i'll try my best. my day was boring, slept in and went to school at fourth, its becoming a habit .. i need to stop lol

QUOTE OF THE DAY
it's because people have this determined belief that things will always work themselves out in the end, that if you tough out the rough shit, the pieces will always fall where you want them to; it was just a matter of patience. as if life is testing how bad you really want it. you endure the brutal winter for a bountiful spring, right? but see where that line of thinking had gotten her? sometimes patience has nothing to do with it. and sometimes, no matter how much you tough it out, you're not supposed to, and the pieces will absolutely not fall where you fucking want them to

When you reach into a box of Lucky Charms, you know there's a prize in the Bottom. When you miss the King of the World scene in Tiantic, you can rewind it. You can fast forward through when Simba's dad dies in the Lion King. But in life, if you miss something, you miss it. You can't go back. Sometimes you take all the right chances, say all the right things, and you still end up right back where you started. Happiness is not free, even though everyone says it is. Really, think about it. Something bad has to happen for you to realize how much you appreciate what you have now, to truly be happy. You won't know what the sunshine feels like unless you've been in the dark for a while. The people you love the most are the ones that end up hurting you the most. Life bites, and there are no guarantees, but somehow it always ends up giving you this great feeling when everything's said and done

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So today, my chance to update this.. First period was just chilling, my whole class went to the co-op presentation, and I saw the cutest white guy I have ever seen in my life, he looks like Leonardo Di Caprio, but sexier and younger. Third period I showed jasmine and she said he was hot too. Fourth, I finally got over my presentation with charmayne, which took like 10 minutes & it was supposed to be 20. But it's whatever, Cory was being smart again bout "oh ya you did your thing" sure lol. My english class is I think yet the livest class this semester just because we treat our teacher like shit, I kinda feel bad but whatever. I went to work at 5:00, ate like a whole bag of m&m's lol. And I'm proud of myself for staying home today lol.

QUOTE OF THE DAY
sometimes it's right to do the wrong thing

wow, i havent updated in such a long time.. well not really but its still 5 days. so friday what did i do? it was ryan's birthday. after work i just went home because arlene's jam was cancelled. was bored but didn't mind because i was mad tired anyways saturday: during the morning i met up with athina, to go help me buy a present for my secret santa, at work.. went home again, and waited until 6 to pick up athina from work then, walked to arlene's that was such a long fun walk just because lol. and i proved to myself that i can't multi-task.. no hope. hah, anyways then we ended up driving to pho thanks to laurence for the ride. decided to go around until james was finish with his staff meeting until 9:30. congrats to him btw for getting his job at green earth. then ended up going to amc, then lakeshore and around to sauga road to look at pretty sexxy houses, then ended up at timmies. that was prolly it. sunday home all day. monday, went to school & did my project for the whole night cuz supposedly we had a presentation on tuesday. tuesday slept in until 3rd period, went to school. and didn't even end up presenting. no point. im glas i got to eat taco bell for some reason i've been craving it lol. and ran into danny nguyen today :) i love him.


QUOTE OF THE DAY
aspire to inspire before you expire