walk away

when people walk away from you,
let them go. you're destiny isn't
tied down to anyone who leave you.
It doesn't mean they're bad people.
It just means that their part in
your story is over.

reading week.

OMG, reading week is over :( BOOO. I really don't wanna go back to school. I didn't even do any school work when I'm supposed to. I have two exams this week and I've only gotten over a bit of the stuff I'm supposed to go over. Anyways. So my reading week was okay, but not long enough. Monday I was with my fam. Tuesday with Baby the whole day. Wed-Fri I was at work. Friday, spent the night with baby watching Beverly Hills 90210 old but pretty good show. Saturday worked then watched Shutter Island with baby then today I went to church. NO LIFE! I HATE MY LIFE. lol

Happy Birthday Baby!

Happy monthsary to Klaudine and A-tee & Happy Birthday babe!

Today baby came over early maybe around 9:30 after his gym. Laid down on my bed for a bit maybe til 11:30 watching Couples Retreat, still funny :P. Got Ready and went to go watch Valentine's Day at Famous, not that great of a movie. But ya, passed by my work then rented Time Traveler's Wife and headed to my place. I miss just chilling days like this with baby because I never really get the chance to chill with him like this nowadays. We're both busy, and the only days we get with each other is Friday night, and Saturdays, and maybe sometimes Sundays. But whatever, I LOVE YOU BABY. Hope to spend every birthday with you!!

family day

So woke up pretty early today, baby woke me around 10ish cuz he was leaving. Then went back to sleep again for a bit til daddy-oh woke me up to tell me we're reaching my grandparents place. So blah blah, got to my grandparents and watched the Olympics, ate like a pig, and watched movies with cousins. It's nice spending time with family once in awhile. We started looking at old pictures, I remember being such a spoiled kid that I would get whatever I wanted from my mom, my grandparents, even my aunts and uncles. But ya, so I got a baby picture that my grandpa have and I'm gun give it to baby :) aha. Anyways, my cousin is having a baby shower soon, I just can't wait til her baby girl is out, since I'm going to be a god mother, and Ray is going to be a god father, me & him will spoil that baby off. I'm excited to just borrow her from Jezz all the time and just take her out with me & Ray :P. Baby would love that little cutie off, he'd make such a great dad. But not now, maybe in the future.. :)

THANKS BABY!

I would just like to thank my boyfriend for a wonderful Valentine's Day/Weekend. Thanks for the roses that everyone was jealous about lol, the card and the chocolate baby. Thanks for surprising me :P and for coming to church with me. I love you. Today is family day unfortunately I can't spend the day with baby, maybe tonight? lol. He went to Buffalo with his family, and I'm spending mine with my family. But tomorrow is baby's birthday and I'm spending it with him yay :) for the first time ever, I can spend something special with him. But anyways. Im off to go..

toodles

dee

update

Oh man, I haven't been in this for so long. Haven't updated this with what's going on in awhile. Everything is busy busy.. I've been so exhausted. School and work has been very exhausting. Valentine's day is coming and i wonder what baby is getting me.. hmmmm? =P anyways i'll leave it here and update more later..

2:10 AM - SUNDAY

Baby just left my house 15 minutes ago..
My phone rings..

Me: Hello
Baby: Hi baby, did you know that you look so cute when you're sleeping?
Me: huh?
Baby: I just love to stare at you when you sleep, didn't you notice I keep kissing you and snuggling with you while sleeping? You're like my baby
Me: I know.. I fell asleep fast during the movie
Baby: Can I keep you baby?
Me: I'm yours forever!
Baby: Kiss!
Me: MUAHHH
Baby: MUAAHH!

I love youuu! You make my day! even if it's like when we just parted you make me miss you like crazzzy!

It pisses me off that the strike is always getting pushed back to another date. Like if you guys want to go on strike, just go, cuz it's wasting both of our times. The fact that theres so much rumours going on pisses me off more too. But whatever..

Thanks baby for coming over last night :) even if it was only for a bit, watching Saved By The Bell with you was fun :P. Tonight, you better pick me up at 930 don't forget like last week. Don't get too carried away with playing basketball with my dad and my brother and other people lol.

Monotone teachers are the worst, especially for college students. Like why would they hire teachers like that when they know that students won't be able to learn from their annoying way of speaking. PISS ME OFF.

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LAZY DAY.

OMGAH, lol woke up early cuz people are looking at our house. BOO!! Anyways, Klaudine also came over, and right now she's sleeping on my bed lol cuz it's comfy like that. I'm about to go back to sleep as well since I just finished my online classes. I really am pissed that we're selling our house because first, I don't want to move, second, I don't want to be far from baby, and third, I hate moving, it's tiring. I just hope my parents finally make a decision on where we're going to move and if the case is moving to Toronto, I'm moving out. I can easily find roommates that I can share the rent and utilities with if my boyfriend isn't allowed to move in with me lol. It would teach me how to be more independent and more self-reliant rather than relying on my parents all the time. I can learn how to cook & do laundry on my own :P.

OMG SHE'S SNORING! LOL

Anyways, today is such a lazy day, I don't think me or Klaudine will reach school just because. OMG I NEED TO STOP SLACKING. I have no motivation, I miss my boyfriend, I feel so apart from him, I'm lazy, the weather sucks, everything sucks right now. Whatever, I'll go back to sleep and dream. Maybe in my dream, everything would be perfect. *cross fingers*

NEXT STOP : MOVING OUT!

party everyday! :) lol.

xoxo dee

thanks

Thanks for tonight sweetie, you know what I'm talking about. At least you proved to me that you could actually give me something. I appreciate it. I miss you, I miss the old times. I just hope we 'talk' like that more often. I MISS YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH. I love you no matter what.


oh how I miss summer. PLEASE COME BACK so I can finally relax like this with my baby..


danielle

unappreciated

I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
and I don't know how much more,
I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
And lately I've been feeling,
Feeling unappreciated.


Woke up this morning and saw your face
And you didn't look the same as yesterday.
I got the feeling that you can't seem to see,
Where you want to be.
And lately it ain't been the same at all.
When you're here its like I'm invisible
I still can't seem to see where I went wrong.
Cause I'm feeling unappreciated


Lately our house is not a home
You come in, take a shower and then say I'm gone.
What am I to do
When my heart says leave
But my feet won't move
And today is our anniversary
And you haven't even said two words to me
I'm trying hard to give you another chance
But baby I'm feeling unappreciated


Oh when I first met you
I thought you was the most perfect man
That I ever seen
I still don't understand why
You treat me like you do
I use to give into your lies
But now I see the truth
Oh no I don't want to hear it I'm through
Yea I know I'll still be missing you
But it's not worth the pain
That I've gained from you
You make me feel
Unappreciated


Don't love me no more
I'm really feeling unappreciated.

strike

I'm praying so hard that Colleges won't go on strike. They have a set date for Feb 11th, I really don't want my summer ruined. Like please, let the students get over the load on their back and then go on strike. You guys keep mooching money off of the students through tuition, books, etc. But whatever. Class today was fun, as usual it was me & Sharlene on a monday morning being hyper. I can honestly say that our group is bomb, all we do is laugh and make jokes, but we still get our work done. I'm pigging out with the Hershey Kisses me and baby bought from Niagara on Saturday. By the was thanks babe for bringing me to Niagara, then watching When in Rome with me, and bringing me to Pickle Barrel for dinner :) LOVE YOU. I also love the Guess watch you bought me :) even if it's huge, I gotta go to a watch store to take of its links so I can finally wear it :). I also hope you love the GPS I got you :) I took my time thinking of that. And I know you love it. Anyways, strike or no strike, I can't wait for reading week, perhaps me & baby can spend some time together during that week :) I really want a frikking get away, perhaps Valentine's day? *cough cough*.. IM BOREEEEED. whatever.

xox dee

one year

I hate it. It's ruined. The only day you can be nice to me, be a boyfriend, be a gentleman, and you chose not to. You chose to leave me here literally crying and not giving two fucks about me. Worst than that you swear at me? you yell at me? Do you think I'm some kind of a superhero that doesn't get hurt? If so, then something is wrong with you. You can't even appreciate all the things I given you for our one year. I skipped 3 days of school to complete your presents and you cant even take 6 minutes to watch it? I would've thought you'd be excited to watch it. But instead you'd rather watch your wrestling and even worst play your Wii, THEN SLEEP? Thanks a lot. You know my heart, it's about to fucking burst in million pieces soon. I really hope you could cure it, but you can never. I hate when you tell me things that gets my hopes up. When are you ever going to put me first? The only thing I can do to ease all the pain you cause is burst into tears. I feel so fucking broken. I'm ready to fall off the string I'm holding on to. You always shut me out. Why are you like that? Don't you feel horrible you're hurting me? I mean you tell me you love me yet you can hurt me like that? you can swear at me like that? you can yell at me? You ask me why I can't be happy.. you should know why. why can't you put your all attention on me, even just for once. I might sound selfish when I say that but I mean I deserve it. You can never just have your attention on me. There always has to be something else. I'm left with questioning if this is really real for you. Cuz I'm not up for games. I should be holding a lot of grudges on you, but I don't I give you a chance to prove yourself all the time, now I'm running out of reasons. I mean if you're really not ready for me, you can't change that right? who can? cuz I tried, and theres still nothing there. I cry myself to sleep all the time because of us, I put everything inside me. I'm always left alone crying in the dark. Why can't you feel bad for me, for once.. I wish you could feel how you make me feel. I wish you could understand, I wish you could see my mind & my heart. I wish you were aware of how make me feel. I wish you dont turn away. I wish you'd love me more. I wish you'd be there when I feel alone and losing my grip. I wish you'd wipe my tears when I cry. I wish for so much things to change in you. I pray every night. But no matter how much hate I have for you, when I see your face or even just hear your voice it all goes away, I mean I know you love me, your just having a hard time showing it. Am i right? But why is it hard? I wanna know why you cant be the boyfriend that would show me to his mom. Am I not worth it? Cuz I feel as if I'm not thats why it's better off I don't meet them. I dont know.. this is just sad.. Im slowly slowly falling..

And you know ain't nothing better
Then when we get
Mad together and have angry sex
Then we forget what we were mad about

aha

happy one year, i love you.
even if you don't

always,
danielle