Today was my first day back in school, geez I never felt so lazy in my life in such a long time lol. All my teachers was asking me where I have been and stuff, well I've been home :). Geez, Mr. Reyes woke me up during Religion class aha, as in he actually bumped on my desk with his chair intentionally. Cosmo class was fun, I gave Maryse a haircut today, I also put hot rollers on her hair. Speaking of that I still have to do all my client day reports, fml. I think Imma be doing Maryse's hair tomorrow again, conditioning treatment perhaps? Chem was sucky, tell me why we have to make cookies for thursday, like miss people are busy. Speaking of Thursday, no school yay =], Jack Darling with the darlings? I miss my friends, I actually haven't chilled with them for awhile. I miss laughing about stupid things and just being around them 24/7 not saying I don't like the way things are going for me right now because I do. I love it. Things change, I just miss the old days, when everyone was still youngins aha. Friday is Best friend's & Gerikka's birthday jam :), i haven't jammed with them for awhile as well wow, I'm like down low forever & ever & ever like what Kuya Ian said lol. I don't know how to get there so I guess Im gunna reach with Lauren since she needs help with the jam i think?. But ya omg it's mine & boyfriend's 2 months tomorrow, that's what imma be doing tomorrow, writing a big ass post :) hopefully I can achieve it. Something is wrong though, something different. He's not in the mood? Having a bad day? I don't know. Is it just me or is it wrong that Im always On MSN, even if im not talking to anyone? I don't know correct me if I'm wrong but last time I checked no one said I wasn't allowed to be ON, or wasn't allowed to change my display pic. But whatever, I know your tired or something's wrong that you don't wanna tell me. So I'll drop it cuz I don't wanna have an argument again.. You might say I don't care but what is left for me to do when you think all my actions are wrong? I have nothing.. since I can't seem to change your mind towards things. One question, aren't the things I do for you enough? Am I not enough? Cuz to me you're more than enough, way more than enough. Let's face it.. I just want your jealousy to calm down...

Love is patient, love is kind.
It is not

jealous

, it is not boastful,
it is not proud. It is not rude,
it is not self-seeking, it is

not easily angered

,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always

trusts

,
always hopes, always perseveres.
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

♥

dee

Friday was such a nice day out, was supposed to run ball with the boyfriend but nooo cuz I had to wait for my school to call and it called round like 6:45 lol. Parents & brother was asking me & Ray to go eat dinner with them, but no cuz of stuff. Had some 'peace' in the house when loud people left *cough*. Haunting at Connecticut (however you spell it) is some next scary ugly whack movie. The freaking theater was packed with bitches that wanted to fight each other f'real lol, people have to calm down sometimes, & others should shut their mouth sometimes as well, so everybody gets along. Went all the way to Brampton to eat Denny's but I don't know how we got there cuz I was sleeping, like always. Had some talk with the boyfriend about the 'past' and stuff, made me kinda glad cuz at least we're both honest bout it not hiding anything. Saturday, thought I wasn't going to see the boyfriend due to the fact that he went to Buffalo with his fam, I decided to go to youth, I miss it.. I miss everyone. From 80 to frikking 35, big number was taken away from it, but hey we're moving along better than before. No arguing, no backstabbing, no nothing.. Everything is bout God. Thanks to Kuya Matthew for guiding us to get back up on our feet even with a small amount of number. I also learned the meaning of ACTS when praying, Adoration - Confession - Thanksgiving - Supplication: basically Adoration meaning, adoring God, praising him. Confession is self explanatory. Thanksgiving is thanking God for what we have, etc. & Supplication is asking God for our needs. A prayer also has to end in the name of Jesus, or in Christ. Bur anyways enough of my preaching, ugly came over round 10 after youth & we just chilled, watched Role Model, pretty funny but a corny movie. Sunday, church finally, after 2836587 Sundays of missing it, Kuya Nico picked me up since no one can come with me, thanks kuya. Boyfriend came over after church, lol to finish his unfinished game with my brother. I can't believe he actually beat my brother twice ahah. Today I intentionally didn't go to school because of the ABA show, decided not to go since ive been going for the past years. Boyfriend surprised me again, surprisingly he didn't need to go to work so we just chilled for the whole day :). I also had my first in-car training for driving school and it was um scary at first but at least I got the good teacher VINNAY, he's funny, he made my in-class live, unlike those other guys. Anyways he made me do all the hard stuff I can't wait til my next one. :)
oh gosh second month coming soon : ) yayayayay, and it falls on the day of APRIL FOOLS. So um if you're reading this ugly, you better not be fooling me or else ill kill you lol. love you :)

anyways ill update more later? maybe. just maybe =P

♥

dee

PLAID.

civies day today. Watched Few Good Men during Religion, seriously that was the first movie that didn't make me fall asleep in Religion lol. Lunch was pretty sick, went out for oyakodon however you spell it & took nuff pictures with my poser friends lol but i love them to death :) . Ill probably post some up next post? or add some up later on here. But ya what's up with the farmer's sweater / plaid shirts today? oh & the color blue..Third & fourth period cosmo was pretty chill, just marked & we got a chill supply. Hopefully Jessica won the skills competition, & so did Cate hopefully. These girls are really awesome when it comes to hair seriously. Fifth chemistry was pretty boring, it feels like I'm doing math class again except without James bugging me & more boring & Math class was more live & chill than chem. Went to sq. with Klaudine after school, I'm her lucky charm :) lol KIKOman, i swear to god Klaudine that's a soy sauce :P, 'NOSEBLEED' my ass. Waited for Kuya Ian to get off work, chilled, & ate. Thanks kuya for the food :). Saw Jhen, Dawn, Ryan & Kuya Rey after like 29864287432 years lol, I miss these people. Thinking back to the old times when everyone was always together even if there wasn't anything to do. Anyways ew there's so much pedophiles/perverts in the world nowadays. Saw the boyfriends afterward & went to the Marcellinus court to shoot some hoops, I was so happy I saw the boyprreennd, it feels like forever, i missed him =] I got to bite him on the cheek aha. I still owe you like 364753847 BITES baby, you swore nuff times. You're such a teaser killed me in ball but hey i killed you in 21 =]. But that was such a workout never felt this tired in awhile, since that day me & boyfriend went to the Y to work-out which to think bout it was a looooong time ago lol. Taking a shower felt so nice lol. anyways seeing boyfriend again tomorrow yay :) but im still bummed bout the fact that im not seeing him on saturday/ ( N ) instead im going to driving school. GAAAY lol. I really gotta stop loafting & start working on my life. anyways that's it for now.

♥

dee

If a guy treats you like he doesn't give a shit, it's because he doesn't give a shit.
-He's Just Not That Into You

kayso, i still wanna watch he's just not that into you *coughcough*. LOL I learned the most random thing ever from the best friend, that i grow while i hiccup. & for someone else that reads this you know who you are, I'll do your blog when I feel like it :) lol, it tooook me long enough to do your previous one mr cheeseball over thurr. I should be doing homework right now so umm =( beeeerrr gay. I shall after I finish this. I can't wait til Friday :). Tmrw is civies which means stresssss, lol don't know what to wear. So today my mom booked my Humber assessment test for April 18th, omg i'm scared. I can already feel a lot of stress coming soooooon. All the grad thing, grades, fees, blahs blahs blahs. At least I'm happy & content with what I got right now. I know all this hard work is gunn get me somewhere. homework time ....
reminder: don't swear / if you do SLAP YOUR MOUTH :)
it's all love.

♥

dee.

ever since i was young, i never
understood anything about the world.
and anything that happened in my life,
the only thing that ever made sense
was you, and how i felt about you.
thats all ive ever known, and thats enough;
that's enough for the rest of my life.
-- Boy Meets World.


new layout :)

March 19: Saw everyone at Square, I knew it was gun be such a loaft but it's okay, spent the time with the loves. Kuya Ian made me some nice crepes which I'm craving right now lol. So much for job hunting wow, whatever I'll do it on Thursday, this time no loaft lol. Me & Ray had a talk and it was probably by far the most tears I've cried in awhile, but we resolved it like always, no need to get into details. Got dropped off home by Ray, thanks baby for skipping your gym time =]

March 20: Happy Birthday Dadddddydukes & Kuya Lawrence Teves. Sorry Kuya I couldn't make it to your party, I had to stay home for daddydukes's birthday. Anyways boyfriend came over and supposed to stay home and just chill, but mommadukes decided she didn't wanna cook so we just went out for dinner along with baby, lol wasn't that awkward anymore, my family & my boyfriend are starting to get comfortable with each other which is really good : ). Went back home after dinner & watched Rush Hour 2, LMAO such a funny movie, & watched Monsters Inc. after, geeeez BOO is so adorable. Baby you're the big blue monster lol, i forgot his name :P

March 21: Got woken up early from staying up late the night before. Parents wanted to go to the grandparents base cuz Uncle from Calgary & cousins were over. Haven't done that in awhile so I wanted to go anyways, was supposed to go out with Ray after so he decided to pick me up all the way to Dufferin, thanks baby :). My family loved the cake, especially my dad lol. Went all the way back to my house to get ready cuz I looked a mess while big baby was sleeping on my bed lol. Went to the park & ran lmao it was freezing, discovered some place where there's enough basketball nets. Lol baby let's go camping there. eheh. Watched I Love You Man in big ass theatre, soo funny lol you guys should go watch it. Went to go see Athina at Maci-Maci lol that whore :P no comment, I love her. Was gunn have dinner with her but too awkward & things can't expose lol. Went to rent Child's Play 2 instead & went back to my place and watch. I love just relaxing & cuddling with you baby, even if we don't do things & go to places it's good : ), being laid back is good sometimes =]

March 22: Last day of march break (N), went shopping at Vaughan Mills, went to Sq afterwards to exchange something, then went home to talk to boyfriend.. such a downer we didn't even get to do half the March-break list me & everyone made, oh well summmmmer time soon =]

Today: SCHOOOOOL - downer suckie annoying boring slow effed etc.
lol baby 'bring it on knee-grow' watch me bitch ! lol. On the other hand I feel really bad that I can't go with Klaudine tomorrow to her assessment test at Ryerson, I thought it was next tuesday =( lol. Sorrrrry din, I LOVEEEE YOU : ) I'll make it up to you on thursday ;) .. ouuuu I was talking to Kuya Rey today and wow i havent talked to him in such a long time, I guess some people just move on & just mature from a phase where its all immaturity. I still remember when I would chill with him almost everyday, now he doesn't have time for his bunso & everyone else anymore. But it's okay i understand him. At least hes happy with his stuff now. But kuya, we all miss you, especially me & Lauren.


-
I'm really sad that I'm not seeing my boyfriend this Saturday, i guess ill do my driving school lol, i know you're reading this don't even say 'ya you always say that baby' .. psssh bitch please =]. lol. Uh i guess i'll leave it here, & I should wait for John & Kate +8 season finale. That show is too adicting.


-Dee

TODAY
- chilling with lauren :) fina'frikkin'ly, missioning to b-town to pick her up

- job hunting

- perhaps movie? he's just not that into you

- see everyone? i misssssss everyone wtf.

- etc.



+ i hate the fact that you don't give a tiny bit of trust to your own girlfriend. Everytime we fight, it's because of your issue. What do you want me to say when we fight? obviously ill defend myself, when you're accusing me of shit that you used to do. You should know me by now ... whatevsssssssssssss.

What's up duck? ew im awake so early, it's only 11:55, supposed to go to the doctors with my brother but no cuz my mom left his health card so she had to go home early and bring him instead. I hate having my period, my attitude turns around like there's no tomorrow. I become such a bitch towards everyone, my body hurts, headaches, etc. So to whoever I bitch at, I'm sorry especially to the boyfriend. Since you're the only one around me all the time I tend to bitch at you the most, you don't quite get the fact that you just have to let me be for a bit & give me the benefit of the doubt just yet.. but you're getting at it, & I appreciate it. UGH I seriously think I have a bladder infection, I told my mom about what I'm feeling and she being a nurse even told me that it is an infection. Ive been drinking cranberry juice since forever that its starting to gross me out. Anyways I really don't feel like doing anything today just because I'm not in the mood. Friday is papadukes's birthday and iono what to get him, it's also kuya Lawrence's birthday. The boyfriend doesn't wanna go with me even just for a bit like seriously baby would it kill you to come with me for a bit?But whatever I won't even make it big. I just realized we haven't had a big argument for more than a week now, it's a record lol. I really hope we keep it up. I realized its all bout giving in, trusting, and just being happy together no matter what. But I don't wanna jinx it cuz what he have going is the best. Anyways I feeeeel so hungry so I shall eat after this. ill update more later i guess?

NTS: make eduardo print resume.


-drs

FML.

*first picture with short hair =(

*boyfriend crossing some guy

*brother & boyfriend bonding lol.


Fuck my life, it's a very nice day today & what am I doing? NOTHING, as usual staying home and doing nothing productive. But I decided that after I update I will do something lol. Yesterday was a good day, Ray surprised me by calling me early in the morning & saying he's coming over it really made me smile & happy because I got to spend Friday, Saturday, & Monday with him. Fell asleep again since it was too early when he came over. Cooked some breakfast & played PS3 again. I really enjoyed watching them get scared over Resident Evil 5, like it's a video game only fags gets scared of that lol. My brother was literally wrapped in a blanket & my boyfriend just being scared ahaha. I seriously fell asleep while watching their boring ass game =P. After getting ready we decided to hit the park, went to the ball court at Marcellinus to run ball as you can see from the pictures above. My brother blocked some fatass old man LMAO it was so jokes aha. & my boyfriend was just loving his Chris Paul passes. hhhmmm lol. Anyways went home afterward and watched some more basketball, I seriously hate basketball & wrestling. I feel like such a man watching those things with them lol. Anyways so I had a talk with my long time friend Jeric, holy I haven't talked to that man in such a long time he was telling me how he's gunn leave for 3 months during the summer to train for the army again, & he's deciding if he wants to go to the war next year. He's so brave geez, I still remember when I overheard his sister say 'kuya whenever you're away with the army, I get so scared because I don't know what you do there & I'm worried for you'.. it really melted my heart hearing that from a 6 year old. I'm proud of him with all his hard-work. On the other hand, everyone has problems these days including myself, wow. I really hope & pray that things between the bestfriend & her family will be good asap, cuz i hate seeing her sad & depressed. I'm also still having problems at the fact that I still don't have a job, like what the hell. Im going job hunting with Eduardo soon & I hope things go well lol. I really hate depending everything on my boyfriend cuz I never really done that before, all my ex's were used to depending on me, not trying to feel nice bout it but it was just always like that. I always feel bad, baby, maybe we should stay home more often so no more spending money lol. I admit my faults, but you know what when I get a job I'll spoil you to death :P, i love you. I just really hate depending on my boyfriends & parents money, I feel like I can support myself & stop loafting on this. I'm also still mad at the fact that I havent been in church in forever, I really should go next week. But whatevsss I'm done with this ..


& OMGAAH, I hate the new facebook.


-dee

Uh havent updated for like 2 days now, I'm bored & got nothing better to do so why not update. Hmm Friday was cute, me & my little brother stayed home just because we're too lazy. Ugly came over early, I was still literally sleeping on my bed when he came over. Slept on his arms for awhile and had some 'PEACE' lol. Decided to wake up and make breakfast, well he mad breakfast cuz I can't really cook lol, thanks for that baby. My brother enjoyed that food aha cuz not often someone does that. After breakfast & things, them being boys again started playing PS3, for like the whole day while I was getting ready. Waited for mom to come home, ate pizza, & left my house. Like always, nothing better to do on a Friday night than a movie, we watched Last House On The Left, pretty interesting movie I must say, better than frikking WATCHMEN. Baby felt for soup afterward so we decided to go eat some pho before calling it a night. Saturday, slept in big time so I could get energy for the night. Too bad Jack Darling was flop with the friends it could've been nice to just chill at the park on a lovely day. I decided that I was just gunn stay home and get ready & miss my brothers game, baby came over until we found out what to do lol. Decided to go watch Mall Cop at the Drive-in at Oakville, new experience always fun =] except for the part where his car that was recently cleaned was all muddy, well at least the tires, poor car. But still thank you for cleaning your car especially the inside of it =], now its not dusty anymore & you wont hear me nagging you to clean it anymore =] lol. Anyways Mall Cop was pretty funny. So we decided to go bowling after OMG & here's the part where I have to boost, I BEAT HIM! what what, I never been this good in bowling lol. Then after one game he beat me all the way lol that perv! But whatever at least I'm getting better at it. So I was tired from bowling, this fag decided to go to Markham to eat at some restaurant called Destiny, I decided to nap on our way there, we got there and all i hear was 'DAMN IT, ITS ON RENOVATION' fuck your life lol, he looked like a grumpy old man complaining about how hungry he was but it was cute. Decided to go back to Sauga to eat at Denny's. I really love spending time with you :). OMG I really wanna see my wiifey's hair, she's finally not barbie doll anymore lol. anyways ill update more later ..


P.S.
BABY YOU'RE TOO QUICK
if you catch my drift.
aha.

that's when i love you ..

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you, just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you, endlessly

And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,
I love you anyway

Here's my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
That's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough

I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes

And when you forget that we had a date
Or when I look at you cute when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway..

morality.

Religion was still boring as usual but at the same time quite interesting, we haven't had a discussion in awhile, but ughh I really have to get a hang of not falling asleep in class when the teacher talks I was literally the only one that was sleeping in class today lol. We talked bout the 6 Steps of moral development;

Reward & Punishment: This is a part when people do what's right & wrong, it might be called criminal mentality by some. It's like having the mentality of 'i can get away with it, it's alright' kind of thing. For example; It's okay to have sex as long as I don't get pregnant - or as for guys don't think that they will get caught or responsible for fathering someone's child, It's okay to cheat as long as you don't get caught.
Me First: A selfish basis of moral decision making. Put it in a way for example, It's okay for them to break someone's heart as long as theirs is not broken. It's kind of the reverse of the GOLDEN RULE huh?
Pleasing Others: This is sort of like doing the right or wrong things that somebody else approves of. Put it in a peer pressure category. One example is when a person wants to be like by everybody, he/she will do anything to please them.

The next three steps we're gunn talk bout tomorrow. That topic made me really think of the REAL thing, what's real & what's not. Or even what's really right & wrong. But whatever sooner or later my mind will be clear of all these things, perhaps when I go out in the REAL world. Anyways I'm really sad that Klaudine won't be able to come to Sandbanks with us, speaking of that I gotta remind James of that lol. & I'm really happy that bestfriend finally got a blogspot, I hope it really helps her with the venting issue. OMG OMG OMG I got my immunization shots today, holy why am I so terrified of needles someone please tell me. While at the clinic my mom, brother, & I were having a conversation bout who else RAY. LOL, I mean I'm glad that they love my boyfriend, but hey don't get in our business, & I know that my dad is just looking out for me but like what you asked me before if you could trust him, YES YOU CAN. Watch guys we'll prove you guys wrong. Anyways YAY tomorrow is Thursday that means LAST DAY OF SCHOOL, since I'm not going on friday & mother doesn't have a say lol. YAY seeing my boyfriend, & WE'RE CLEANING HIS CAR! & i know you're reading this baby, yup that's right we are cleaning you're car OKAY?DEAL lol. If we clean it you can get your KILLZONE 2 & RESIDENT EVIL OR WII .. DEAL? lol. Anyways can't wait till the weekend, i really mister 'SAYS' over there =P. I made a memory box today : ) ITS AWEEESOME!


SHIT MAN I NEED A JOB. baby my resume please ! & THANK YOU : ) i owe you
but actually no I don't cuz you're finishing school by april, which means URGH id still have 2 or 3 months left? urghhh.

btw HAPPY 8 MONTH to my wiifey Athina & my kuya James !
I love you both !!

- dee

So updates, he finally called.. Mommy's boy is with his mommy at the grocery store lol. But anyways I wanna dedicate this update to Klaudine my love lol. You know you likes whats happening.. No more shyness between you know who & you . AHA, I love how I like teasing you in front of you know who, and you know who doesn't have a clue about it ahaha .. And bout 'TREEPAL' date ahaha ;) yknow yknow, james&athina ray&me you&youknowho. AHAH, pleasse don't kill me or do that thing that annoys me .. ITS REALLY ANNOYING. it's the kind of thing like when you scratch your nails on the board aha.. I LOVE YOU = ]

anyways I was talking to my long time girl Kristina or as I call her Kissa, I miss that girl, I remember the old times when we would chill every frikking day she would always come down from brampton, ROYALFAM. lol, speaking of that where's everyone nowadays? & congrats to our girl Grishka for having her baby like two days ago., I also remember she would always sleep over at my house lol and she always twitches at night LMAO i find it so funny. & COLLINGWOOD, when we would sneak cigarettes and shit lol eheh goodtimes.. & Hopefully our plan on watching He's just not that into you on tuesday will happen, I REAAAAALLLLLY MISS HER. we go way back

Anyways, boyfriend you keep teasing me i hate you =] you're lucky i love you lol. FRIDAY SATURDAY & parhaps SUNDAY & MONDAY :) , 'they don't know bout us' ahah haters.

Got to first & the teacher didn't show up til like iono 9:45, so Mr. Thomasovick put this movie called Bella for us while waiting for the teacher. Mr. Reyes came and had to ruin the movie for us to talk bout Cathesism things, & tried relating the creation of Adam & Eve to Lord of The Rings. It was a pretty boring class cuz all I could think of was the weekend, I really miss my boyfriend. So I decided to day dream, & it led off to sleeping in class, hey sleeping in class is better than not being there everyday so whatever. Anyways speaking of that guy, I don't know where he is, I asked him to call me after school, since he usually does but he didn't surprisingly it's 7:10 and he's no where to be found. Perhaps out with someone else.. hmm? Sleeping? Napping? If he is he better not be falling asleep on me tonight, cuz if he does clearly he wasn't napping. He better have some good excuses. Urgh I'm so paranoid nowadays, well you I have every right to. I know I'm malicious sometimes as well but you can't blame that on me either. I'm just watching out for myself. I'm selfish when it comes to things that makes me happy. But whatever, I have eyes everywhere so I know exactly what goes on even if no one let me knows. Anyways nough of that, I'm just kinda cheesed again. Anyways back to my daily thing. During 3rd & 4th period we had a presentation from a girl named Wendy from Peel Health. She educated us about sanitation and all that crap. It was a pretty interesting presentation just because nowadays no one is educated when it comes to tattoo's & body piercing. The pictures she showed us were very inappropriate and gross. There's so much we need to know & research before getting piercings or tats or whatever. She also told us about a case that just happened like previously, I actually saw it on the news this morning. Basically that tattoo parlour might have been exposed to HIV, Hepatitis B & C. So everyone that got a tattoo or a piercing from 5 years from this year got a call and advice to get a test. I know enough people that got a call, it's kinda scary. OMG, i need a frikking client to do for tomorrow's class shit my life. I'm such a loafter. Hopefully James booked the Sandbanks thing already whatta loafter and a half. Speaking of that, everyone saw my Summer To Do list & decided to do a March Break To Do List right below it lol. One of then is Niagara, shore buddies .. For all I know it's gunn be loaft again lol. I don't know if I'm down for paintballing, like i mean that shit hurts man. Photoshoot I'm so down. & mmhm I just want the weekend to come, well at least Thursday, no one is reaching school on Friday so yaaaah .. whatevs i'm done




-dee

The fact that you ain't doing shit bout it makes me really really upset. If you're not gunn do it, & chose her side then I'll do something bout it. It's fucked up. You just don't care like it doesn't matter to you. URGHHHH whatever I don't wanna fight so I decided to vent my feelings here. It just really upsets me about how you 'care' SO MUCH.

=(

i know i'm too selfish..

So like I cut my hair !! AAAH, no more long hair =( I literally like cut off half of it gawsh. I wonder why people in my house are so like not in the mood, it makes me not be in the mood either, but whatever I make myself happy lol. So like someone doesn't love me anymore *rolls eyes* he said he was gunn call before ball practice but NOOOO, where's his call? I think down the toilet lol joking. I think it's cuz I made a joke that I forgot about second month lol. Its okay, I got him back from all the time he teases me and I just wanna pinch his cheeks or punch him playfully =P. But ya he's not seeing me that day clearly cuz he's going to watch the bulls game, I believe with his family, or someone else? lol joking. I'm sad cuz I wont be able to see him tomorrow =( so I have to wait longer til Friday =]. We get alone time yay. & yay he called wow I guess I was wrong bout the toilet thing =P. So I just got off the phone with him, & wow PISS OFF, girls really need to close their legs nowadays. Like leave my fucking boyfriend alone, get it straight he has a girlfriend, & he's not interested. FUCK YOU! k whatevs i'm done with this..

shut your freaking gob.

um so Saturday which was yesterday, was pretty WHACK at the beginning but ended up to be GOOD BETTER BEST towards the end =]. Seriously I hate girls, no offense but sometimes they just need to calm down and shut their freaking gob. I admit I have a bad past & so what? People change things change .. So if you're gunn bring up the past, make sure you know the person well enough to start running your mouth. Before you start pointing fingers make sure your hands are clean. My past made me what I am now, and guess what bitch.. whatever you say doesn't affect me, it also didn't affect me & my boyfriends relationship, well maybe a tad bit but hey guess what you failed. Whatever your trying to do didn't happen, it only made us stronger. I know, i know, you tried but better luck next time. Karma will hit you, & I can say this because karma hit me with I have done before, & it made me learn whats right & wrong. Telling other people you're happy for them & contradicting yourself by saying shit bout the other person doesn't make sense, like how you don't make sense. Is that the way of revenge towards me? Don't get me wrong I don't know you, & for me to have this awfull feeling towards you wow you must have done something that got me back, I hope you're happy. But keep in mind, you only got me for a few minutes there. Isn't it funny that day-by-day things change, & when you look back everything is different? Guess what, I'm different now, I payed enough for my old habits & actions.. I'm ready to be serious with life & things because for the first time I'm fucking content, & no one can take that away from me, not even YOU.

Anyways enough venting lol. As Saturday went on, there was tears, laughter & joy, it was like a mixed emotion day. At the end of the day the result was L-O-V-E. Boyfriend came over round 11ish? and started playing PS3 with my brother, jeez you're such a boy. They played until like 5. So whatever I got ready & stuff, then came down for lunch & the most awkward-est thing lol, boyfriend sitting at the dinner table with the whole family, & actually being comfortable. I just love it. So after the day at my house time to go out, even though the weather was a downer. We all went to go to dad's game, geez man they didn't have enough sub players AGAIN, but hey hands down to their team because they actually kept up with the other team having like 4 other extra players. The game went on & there was frikking 2 over-times, like whatever it got boring after awhile. The game finished round 8. Boyfriend & I decided to watch watchmen, HOLY SHIT that movie was seriously the longest movie I've watched in awhile, it started round 10 and finished at like 1. Ugly kept falling asleep, I like pinching his nose when he falls asleep lol. After the movie chilled with him for a bit then went home =]. I think yesterday was a really big big big argument but I also think it made us stronger and value each other more. I know its just one of God's way to challenge the both of us. Me & you are better than all the things we've been through I know it. The things we talked bout last night really made me realize that there are a lot of challenges on the way & also things/people that will try to ruin this, but it's really up to me & you to get through them. I love you ugly.

Anyways today was a loaft day, I'm really tired because of the fact that I got an hour less of sleep, but it's okay it means summer is coming soon, & I'm too excited =) & I know ugly is excited too, he was making me make a list of what we're gunn do for the summer, & I know it's going to be FUN FUN FUN. I literally did homework the whole day today, while talking to the boyfriend. I'm supposed to be calling him back like right now but I decided to update this first, and I bet he's gunn say "so who were you talking to?" or "what were you doing?" lol. But here I am trynna update this, aha I love that ugly = ] ..

FIVE MORE DAYS TIL MARCH BREAK .. aaah


- dee <3

LOVESICK.

Kay so I officially hate this Friday, I went to school wow straight 5 days of school isn't that bad lol. I came to first, we watched a movie called Pay It Forward, I literally watched that movie like 4587647 times already. But it's a good movie though so whatevs. Holy the person that sits beside me (no names mentioned) STINKS! holyyy deodorant please, which I think led me to almost fainting in 4th period, I literally almost fainted in class. I was doing Nicole Guerrerro's hair and all of a sudden, my vision was blurry I was feeling dizzy and I was sweating like there's no tomorrow. All I heard was Charmayne saying 'dee you look so pale'. The next thing I remember was I was sitting on Joanna's chair feeling like I was gone, totally gone, I couldn't even hear the people around me. Natalie came to the rescue & gave me ginger-ale, thanks Natalie, you're the best! Either ways I had to force myself up to finish Nicole's hair, thanks to my friends for helping me finish it, there was literally like 3 people working on one head lol. I signed out before 5th, and had to force myself to walk home alone praying to God that I'll get home safely, and luckily I did =]. I came home and my mom called me asking me what exactly was I feeling etc. Asking me if I have my period, well I don't. So she came to a stupid conclusion "ARE YOU PREGNANT?" okay NO. NEVER. I'm not ready for that just yet, I have more goals before I can become pregnant & have a baby lol. I need to finish school first. But anyways enough of that, I feel better now I guess. I feel so sad though. This is like the first friday I won't see the boyfriend, both our weeks are very hectic school, work, gym, basketball etc. I totally understand, lol speaking of the boyfriend my mom just asked me why he didn't see Ray for the whole week, and I told her that we're both busy but not to worry cuz she's gunn see him tomorrow =). Anyways yes back to that I can't wait to see him tomorrow, it's his sister's birthday today that's why he can't see me & ya I understand cuz Family comes first for sure. I just miss him, maybe that's why I almost fainted, I'm LOVESICK lol. Hopefully Athina comes over and keeps me company *cross fingers*


PS. "putang ina, nareject ako"
LMAO klaudine isn't that so funny, & ironic what I told you from the start ? I knew it anyways.. MARCHHH BREAK IN A WEEEEEEEEEEEK. WHAT WHAT WHAT ? i'm too excited.



with love...

-dee

I decided to be extra good girl this week and decided to reach class, OMG the most boring 3 hours of my life is religion class. And what pissed me off even more is he made a sitting arrangement, he literally put me in front of him, right beside MARWAN. Like wtf, ew gosh. Not trying to be mean or offensive but omg out of all the people you can put me beside, WHY MARWAN? geez, now the rest of my semester in that class is gunn be hell, but whatever we'll see how it goes. By the end of first I was frikking starving like sheesh, lunch wasn't gunn be long either so downer. Third & fourth, I swear my something is wrong with the teacher lately, she's such a bitch & i like rushed my up-do just because i wanna finish it, & it looks like crap, maybe i should re-do it again lol. Anyways I got home today and I was reading Klaudine's note and I should put some in here cuz it really inspired me for some reason.

1) "If you don't love someone, don't show motive for them to love you even more"
2) "Don't let go of something if you can't see someone else holding it"
3) "Don't hold on to something if you know you'll let go of it"
4) "Don't hold something else if you're hands are full"
5) "It's like an elevator, why would you shove yourself in something that is full, when there's fully stairs waiting for you"
6) "If you're not happy with someone, break up with them, why would you wanna be with someone that doesn't make you happy"
7) "If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't complain, i'm sure there's people you did the same thing to."
8) "If you love two people, choose the second one, because there's no way you can love a second one if you loved number one"
9) "Do you know the space between people that are facing each others back?You gotta go all around the world to be able to face someone you once turned your back to"
10) "Not all the things that you understand are real, and not all the thing that you don't understand are lies"
11) "Love is like a ditch, its scary to fall, but if you fall its either by accident or you're just really dumb."
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I frikking translated all of those geez lol, they were all written in tagalog, there was 19 of them but i really don't understand the other 8. But ya I tried I hope they make sense lol.
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On the other hand, we've been fighting lately. & i think we only fight for the fun of it, just because kind of thing. I know you know it too, I think it's because we haven't seen each other in awhile. We're better than this & we both know it. I was told to never look back & I'm sorry that sometimes I do, it is sometimes my fault that the past keeps coming up, especially yours. So we really have to have a talk about letting go of the past, I know that it takes time but this time can we make it freal? I'll help you, as long as you're willing to give me the help I need as well. I really wanna be the girl that you will be proud of while saying "damn, she's the one." I wanna be the girl that changes you for the better, and the girl that you are willing to change for. I also want you to be that someone that I won't give up on, so far I'm successful about that. Letting go of the past is one thing, but I always learned not to forget just because I know that there were great things that can be learned from what we've both been through. I love you, & as of now its you, just YOU no one else, I know that you doubt me sometimes but please don't.The future may freak us out, but it will come either way. The past may give us mixed emotions, but it will stay with us no matter what. It is possible to forgive, to regret, to remember and even to forget, but it is impossible to lose the entire truth. I know for a fact that you are it, im ready to setlle. Some might say it's too early to say, but do i care about what they say? NO. because what matters most is that im happy with you. I love you, & I swear to god if you hurt me, i'll leave. Like what I always say, we know what's right & what's wrong & i know that you know we both need improvement. This is not the end yet, it's just the beginning. We'll get there baby..




- dee

Hmm anyways, whatta nice day outside. Hopefully the weather stays like this omg it's like nice but I want it to be warmer. So grad assembly was today and that was boring, and some next stinky guy was sitting beside Klaudine like he seriously stank. Im sorry but I expect that people know that thing called deodorant. Anyways shit no really, I really need a job, I have to pay like 180 for grad fees shoot me. But whatever I just can't wait til that day. But OMG MY GRAD PIC IS THE NASTIEST AND THE UGLIEST, i looked like shit, i was sick like a cow when i took it, as in i literally forced my self to get up and go to school for 5 minutes to take my grad pic. ITS SO NARSTY. Anyways, uh today was a so-so day lunch was funny, C to the DOME. AHA. So my mommy couldn't pick my lazy ass up after school so I decided I was gunn walk home with James, Ryan, Ero, Jizelle & Lester. The boys decided to run ball with these two brown guys lol. Geez man those two got killed. But whatevs, then they came over for a bit & ya .. SO question is ...... SHOULD I GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW? hmmmm we'll see lol. But ya I miss Ray, yesterday & today made me realize a bit of things. Maybe it's just me but am I getting paranoid everyday? I haven't felt this feeling for anyone at all, I swear. I was never this clingy or anything to someone. I guess I just really care bout him a lot. He makes me happy, & I hope that he's satisfied with me. We have too much plans for the future.

some pictures from today :

so many assume, so little know.

Tell me why it feels like a frikking wednesday? Gees, is it just me or am I that excited for this weekend? hmm. So I woke up today, doing my morning routine. I was in the shower with so much things running through my mind. I can't quite understand why I deserved all of these things that's happening to me. Am I a bad person, am I that horrible? ugh I just hate it. But anyways my classes went by really quick, I'm happy at the fact that I finished 2 haircuts today, THANK YOU LORD. Im not behind anymore, one more haircut & one up-do to go oh shit and facial. Then I have to do everything on clients again. EFF MY LIFE. Im kind of cheesed though, my teacher cut my mannequin's hair too short, geez. So as I was saying, weekend? What's poppin this weekend? um I think just the usuals, I think im gunn bring Ray to Jizelle's jam, but I gotta confirm that still. Tomorrow is our Grad assembly, geez what are they gunn talk about, I hate boring-ness but i'd rather be in there than being in class falling asleep when the teacher keeps on talking & talking. BOYFRIEND, i miss you, as usual. It feels so good to know that you're always by my side supporting me with everything no matter what when life is hard, Thank you soooo much. Anywayssss. I think im done, i dont even make sense anymore, i just like woke up like honestly.



- DEE.

reminisce ..

Uh whatta crappy monday, but hey I'll dedicate this post to Lauren Romano.. I know we've been going through a lot, i mean A LOT & i can't muster up all the feelings i have about this. But just know that I won't hold grudges or anything against this. I guess things happen for a reason no matter how much i tried or we both tried its still not happening. Maybe because we're both not making an effort? or just i dont know. But you know what hey, you're happy, i'm happy. we're good right? But ya .. HAPPY ONE YEAR best friend. I LOVE YOU ..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIZELLE :)

I love you, I hope you have a great one.. You really do deserve it : )

on the other hand, thank you God for everything that you have given me up to this day. I really appreciatte it.

Boyfriend, I MISS YOU! =[ please edit my resume soon lol, i need a job like RIGHT NOW :(

On the other hand, hopefully Klaudine's foot gets better. I feel bad that she can't even put on her sneakers properly .. :( lol.

But ya I really hate not getting my things done for school, especially now that Im in grade 12, thank God for the boyfriend keeping me at school. But ya I didnt go thursday or friday so today i really had to catch up, but major failure because i havent gotten my cosmo things done, i have 3 more hair cuts to do and an up-do, LORD HELP ME.


- dee

one month weekend.

Friday:

Stayed home, didnt feel like going to school

Slept for the whole day

Boyfriend came over for the night

Went out to get pizza

Went home & just chill

Finish Quarantine, lol at carlo getting scared

Saturday:

Slept in

Met up with boyfriend at PHYBA

Watched brother's game

Went to AMC with boyfriend to watch Streetfighter, pretty sick movie

Went to playdium to play, omg i hate basketball lol.

Chilled with boyfriend for a bit more

Came home

Sunday:

Slept in again

Boyfriend came over round 3ish after his game

Went out to buy brother food

Chilled

HAPPY ONE MONTH BABY

this month was awesome, so many ups & downs but we still made it through everything. Too many inside jokes lol, "SAYS" "CASE" "it's not new asshole" LOL. Too many memories, meeting a bunch of my family and them saying how you look like my Aunt's ex lol. Crying to you when I had problems. Valentines day was the best, thanks for the great day at Niagara. Your annoying-ness is too cute baby. Thanks for the things you gave me last night : ) I love them as you can see lol. I know we had arguments, but i seriously think that it brought our relationship to another level. Im looking forward to the next months ;), I LOVE YOU

- dee