i can't sleep through the pain..

* So today was a very boring Friday, geez. Supposed to go out with Athina but lawd my body was aching from the work out i did yesterday. Im such in a bad shape. Stayed home & slept it off, it didn't work though.

- I clogged the sink, which made my mom very cheesed but she's lucky I'm not in the mood to argue, how am i supposed to know that there's a proper way of washing dishes. jeez, Other than that she kept talking & talking. I understand she had work & she's tired but she can't always blame shit on me.

# Both of us are mad for nothing.
This should be nothing to a love like what we got..
Baby I know sometimes it's gunn rain..
I hate when we fight especially over nothing. I love you off and you gotta understand that. It doesn't mean I'm not in the mood I lost feelings for you what so ever. Sometimes you gotta put yourself in my shoe. I need you with me when I'm having problems, not add up to them. I appreciate every single thing you do for me, I truly thank God for giving me a blessing like you. You're such a challenge, I guess I can feel how you feel now because I know I don't give you an easy way out either. Other than that I fuckin Love You off, you don't understand. Others might talk but they don't know shit about what we've been through. I just hope this will work out. I love being with you & what not. The talks we have in person the promises and stuff, i never ever had those in my life. It feels good to know that there's someone that cares. You might think I don't care sometimes, but trust me I do. Just keep in mind the promises i made. I'm also looking forward about being with you, it'll be one heck of a ride. But we'll make it worth the ride. love you long time ugly

% debut thing going down, IS A REAL PISS OFF! first they tell me to find 9 pairs, then 18 pairs, and after convincing the people today they tell me that we're just gunn do 9, like DONT I HAVE A SAY? like it is my debut.. isn't it? I understand you guys don't want stress, but do you think I want this. I'm not helping out because you guys aren't even recognizing my opinions. I wanted a car in the first place, because knowing myself I won't be able to deal with stress I fucking hate it.. Signs of stress are already showing & it's only starting. I just don't know how I'm going to cope with this.

& I just can't wait for tmrw. I need to get away from these people, and this situation even if it's only a few hours. Even if it means studying at the library. Or just whatever. Hopefully everything will be good.

Note To Self: BUY A M'FCKN DRESS !



- dee