I decided to be extra good girl this week and decided to reach class, OMG the most boring 3 hours of my life is religion class. And what pissed me off even more is he made a sitting arrangement, he literally put me in front of him, right beside MARWAN. Like wtf, ew gosh. Not trying to be mean or offensive but omg out of all the people you can put me beside, WHY MARWAN? geez, now the rest of my semester in that class is gunn be hell, but whatever we'll see how it goes. By the end of first I was frikking starving like sheesh, lunch wasn't gunn be long either so downer. Third & fourth, I swear my something is wrong with the teacher lately, she's such a bitch & i like rushed my up-do just because i wanna finish it, & it looks like crap, maybe i should re-do it again lol. Anyways I got home today and I was reading Klaudine's note and I should put some in here cuz it really inspired me for some reason.

1) "If you don't love someone, don't show motive for them to love you even more"
2) "Don't let go of something if you can't see someone else holding it"
3) "Don't hold on to something if you know you'll let go of it"
4) "Don't hold something else if you're hands are full"
5) "It's like an elevator, why would you shove yourself in something that is full, when there's fully stairs waiting for you"
6) "If you're not happy with someone, break up with them, why would you wanna be with someone that doesn't make you happy"
7) "If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't complain, i'm sure there's people you did the same thing to."
8) "If you love two people, choose the second one, because there's no way you can love a second one if you loved number one"
9) "Do you know the space between people that are facing each others back?You gotta go all around the world to be able to face someone you once turned your back to"
10) "Not all the things that you understand are real, and not all the thing that you don't understand are lies"
11) "Love is like a ditch, its scary to fall, but if you fall its either by accident or you're just really dumb."
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I frikking translated all of those geez lol, they were all written in tagalog, there was 19 of them but i really don't understand the other 8. But ya I tried I hope they make sense lol.
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On the other hand, we've been fighting lately. & i think we only fight for the fun of it, just because kind of thing. I know you know it too, I think it's because we haven't seen each other in awhile. We're better than this & we both know it. I was told to never look back & I'm sorry that sometimes I do, it is sometimes my fault that the past keeps coming up, especially yours. So we really have to have a talk about letting go of the past, I know that it takes time but this time can we make it freal? I'll help you, as long as you're willing to give me the help I need as well. I really wanna be the girl that you will be proud of while saying "damn, she's the one." I wanna be the girl that changes you for the better, and the girl that you are willing to change for. I also want you to be that someone that I won't give up on, so far I'm successful about that. Letting go of the past is one thing, but I always learned not to forget just because I know that there were great things that can be learned from what we've both been through. I love you, & as of now its you, just YOU no one else, I know that you doubt me sometimes but please don't.The future may freak us out, but it will come either way. The past may give us mixed emotions, but it will stay with us no matter what. It is possible to forgive, to regret, to remember and even to forget, but it is impossible to lose the entire truth. I know for a fact that you are it, im ready to setlle. Some might say it's too early to say, but do i care about what they say? NO. because what matters most is that im happy with you. I love you, & I swear to god if you hurt me, i'll leave. Like what I always say, we know what's right & what's wrong & i know that you know we both need improvement. This is not the end yet, it's just the beginning. We'll get there baby..




- dee