LONG WEEKEND.

So what did I do during the weekend? Pretty much nothing. Sunday, went to church & had dinner with everyone. FOOD FOOD FOOD! Baby came over for a bit and watched G.I. Joe. Yesterday my parents made me drive all the way to Caledon which made my ass cramped lol. It was a long drive though the roads were empty. We drove around Belfountain, that place is nice I kinda want to go back to just stroll, but not now, perhaps when it gets warm. Then went to Kuya Nicoh's place to drop off things for our donations for people in the Philippines that were affected by the storm. We also got one more box to fill cause all those donations are due on Friday. Anyways, went home, got ready & waited for baby to come over, we went out for a bit & watched Invention of Lying, it was jokes. Today was my first day back from school after the long weekend. Intro was okay, it was fun, we had to build structures and stuff with our group, and like always my group wins =] honestly we're so organized & we always get our work done, we're probably the only team that doesn't have any problems lol, which is good cuz hard work pays off. Comm was okay, I finished class early since I finished my in-class assignment early. I have another test on Thursday. I also got the results on the two subjects that I had a test on last week. Mind you, these two subjects are the classes that I'm most confused at & I didn't study that much since I couldn't understand it anyways. That's what I get for not reading lol. But I got 70% in both which is good compared to tons of people that studied & failed. I felt really sick throughout the day but I had to soldier it out and stay because I didn't want to miss anything. I just hope it doesn't turn out to be a flu. No school tomorrow, I'll probably pick up my yearbook from Goetz. I'm just waiting for baby to call me since I miss him like crazy =(.. I just hate my paranoia, which might turn out true.. Hopefully not.


Duke & The Baroness ♥

- dee

So watched couple's retreat last night, it was so funny. I so wanna watch it again.. Came home just before 2 last night, iono what's up today.. I should get ready soon cuz baby's picking me up.. It's pretty nice out. & I just wanna blabber lol. Im so happy I can chill for a bit with school.. I'm still a bit disappointed that we can't watch the home opener anymore cuz stupid ticket master sold our tickets! & there's no way im sitting in fron of baby, so i guess no more home opener, but baby said he'll watch it with me at home so that would be fine. meh.. ill update later, that was useless.

FINA - fuckin - LY

I finally finished my long dreaded week. The week where I was stressed & freaking out every morning before I go to school & txt my boyfriend & friends that 'I am FREAKING out' every morning lol. I have more shit to do, but I need a break! Good thing it's a long weekend which gives me more time to relax.. NOT! I have to do so much, I got projects & assignments that are worth A LOT!.. This school week is also pretty good for me, I'm starting to get a hang of the people & the change in my life. I knew there was going to be a big change, and I was prepared. Sometimes, I feel like I miss my old friends, but if they don't really give two fucks, I can't either.. Clearly it's different now, people that said they're with you to ride & die didn't commit to it. So concluding that, I also concluded that I can never rely on anyone but myself. I can't trust anyone but myself. But anyways today sucks, it's so ugly outside. I'm probably gun go out with baby, I wanna watch Couple's Retreat =]. & perhaps dinner? I don't know we'll see.. Ill update later on.

always
dee.

SO, my second test is over.. Honestly this was my first time ever writing a test and taking the whole time writing it. I honestly tried my best and hopefully I don't fail. Tomorrow is my day off & I still gotta study. I'm prolly going to go job hunt tomorrow since I need a job and I don't want to spend all my savings. Thursday I got I think COMM test & Business Math test & frikking 2.5 hours of HUMANITIES!. I hate Thursdays!.. But baby said he's going to pick me up so that's fine =]. Baby came over today as well, and we watched the pre-season game of Raptors against Sixers. He helped me with some of my marketing stuff for friday & watched my brother play baby's 2k10 game. Boys & their video games.

Anyways gotta work on my pc class online. FUCK MY LIFE.
NTS: come up with an ad for BizCafe project.

it's just a TEST!

Today was my first test ever in college, I've had quizzes but there's nothing worst than studying so hard for a test. Since I never really done that before. The minute Andrew my prof, gave out our papers it was so nerve racking. But right when I skimmed through it I realized there was really nothing to worry about since I studied. Hopefully I passed the test. I got another one tomorrow which means I have to study after this post so I can be ready. Anyways, I kind of want to vent out, thank god for my blog. I don't know if it's just me but I feel like everything is going downhill. I feel like I'm slowly losing you & your love. Maybe I'm just jealous, there's nothing wrong with that but the worst part is the only time when we can make the best out of each other we end up fighting and not getting along. I feel like you're slowly turning to be a different person, or slowly growing apart from me. I hate thinking this way because I know I shouldn't but I can't stop myself. The point is it's reality, I know I can't always have your time. I better get used to it before this buggin kills me. All i know is that I hate all the what if's I have in mind.. Everything is hurting me as of now. I don't know what will happen.. I'm just sick and tired of getting hurt. & it's hard not to care because even when I say I don't care, I still do no matter what. The way you talk to me now is so different from the way you talked to me before. I hate it. I hate this feeling. You have lost feelings for me, or losing them because from what I can see you are occupied with the other things that make you happy, I can't stop that. But just to let you know, it's not I LOVE U, it's I LOVE 'YOU'. I'll leave you to think about our relationship and how to make it better, I'm counting on you this time cuz I've ran out of things to do.. Regardless, I Love You TOO MUCH. I know it's just a test, and we'll get over it. Whatever is meant, will happen.

always,
dee

FML

Gosh, this week will probably be the last week of school that will be stress-free for me. I have a test on each subject for the whole week next week. Now what I have to do is be focused, since I haven't been that focused. In high school I didn't really study that much, the only time I studied was for exams. But now is my time to study my ass off or I'm toast. I also got big ass projects on the side which means more stress. I kind of miss high school due to the fact that I didn't have to study that hard, or even focus. So kiddies in high school right now enjoy your years of it, because trust me you will miss it. Right now I'm studying Humanities, it deals with like philosophers and shit..

Anyways, Happy Belated 8th month baby, yesterday was mine & baby's 8th month. Thanks for the bracelet =] I love it.. I know we have been having conflicts with our relationship but we somewhat get through them together..
Might sound repetetive but just to let you know that I ....
love when you turn all childish on me, love when you playfully wrestle me and pin me lol, love when all we do is laugh and be silly, love when you teach me how to play sports =], love when you show off your ball skills to me, love when you eat everything possible and don't care, love when you play video games with my brother, love when you play and baby my little cousins like how i baby them, i love when you hug me and never let go, i love your kisses, i love waking up to your txt in the morning, love when you hold my hands, love when after we have a big fight and i'm just crying you would just kiss me and everything will be fine, love the fact that you make me happy and make me smile, love when you make my parents/grandparents/family love you off, love when you would take me to places i've never been before, love when you'd bite me, love when you massage me, love when you play with my hair, love when you let me sleep on your lap like i slept on my mom's lap when i was a little girl, love when we just fall asleep on my bed,

I also love when..
you hold my hands while I'm sleeping in your car, when you act all cute to impress me, when you treat me like im your bestfriend, when you stare at me while im sleeping and i constantly catch you or look at you, when you make me brave towards the scariest things ever, when you scare me so i can slap you lol, when I ask you to wear this and wear that basically dressing you up but you don't listen to me, when it's just pure laughs, when i know you swallow your pride for our relationship, when you watch me put on make-up, when you pick me up from school or go to church with me. when you help me study and make me understand the things i don't, when you vent out on me when you know you can, when you let me vent out on you cuz i know i can, when you always get what you want but you dont sometimes lol, when you get jealous over the littlest things.

There's so much more I can't think of right now, but over all, this is all love.. My unconditional love for you that will always stay =]

I LOVE YOU .. happy 8 months!

always,
dee♥

HEY BABY!♥

I so wanna see Chris Paul =)!

Stayed home today since I was too lazy to go to school.. I wish baby was here =( ..
I don't really know what to blog.. but yaa, I guess I'll do some school work on blackboard ..

-dee.

back on track..

So baby picked me up from school for the first time yesterday, thanks babe, that saved me the hassle of commuting since I finished at 6 and it was mad traffic, I'd rather spend the traffic with you than sit my ass on the bus lol. We ate dinner after and chilled at my house.

All I can say is OH EM GEE, I can't believe I actually made use of GYM at my school lol.. I went to do some cardio today after class since Ross, my prof, let us out early at exactly 10.. so I was at the gym til prolly round 11:45 ish, I also saw the LINX PUB that opened last night.. It's pretty chill in there, there's pub night every thursday.. The only downer is I'M 18! like wtf, why can't I be 19? lol oh well, I don't think baby would want me to go there anyways.. Maybe when I turn 19, I shall bring him, and have some fun, and perhaps do it every thursday =P.. Anyways, I got lots to do for school & I should get my ass to doing them, OR I WOULD BE STRESSED! like how I was on wednesday, very stressed because I wanted to finish everything. Some serious shit.. Today was so cold outside, honestly I'm sad, I hate the weather.. I also feel like I'm getting sick due to the weather.. But see, now I can't get sick because I got school, I have to be in there no matter how much I hate it. Maybe I should ask babe to skip one day next week, and I should skip too =] since I haven't lol.

Honestly, I need to go shopping, I feel like school have been occupying myself forever, I need new boots, fall clothes, etc. I should make a list of what I need to buy before the ugly weather comes.

- New TNA pants ( different color )
- Another ADIDAS Sweater ( different color )
- Lulu-lemon track pants, I really want the grey one
- Lulu-lemon sweater ( white )
- Ed Hardy Purse ( for school )
- Boots
- I need new UGGs
- fall coat

.. etc

fuck, i need to get myself back on track ..

So now I'm just waiting for baby to come pick me up and he wants to go watch Pandorum, I don't even know what that movie is about but all I can is SHOREEE lol. I better update bout the movie later ..

- dee

Haven't been in this since Friday, wow the weeks are going by so fast, I'm already half way done my 3rd week of school.. 12 more weeks and I'm done my first sem.. I'm only on my third week of school and I'm already packed with projects, homework, quizzes, tests, etc. that's kind of one reason why I don't blog that much no more. I got more important things to worry bout. I'm kind of getting the hang of college no lie, it's way better than high school. High school is drama here drama there.. OMG, one more week then it's already mine & baby's 8 months =] I'm excited, he said he's planning something.. hmmm I wonder what it is.. We're already making fall/winter plans lol.. Including, Raptors home opener, Blue Mountain again?, um Halloween stuff, etc. I got so much more to do for school. Thank god for my day off from school today, I got to do all the projects & homework I needed to do.. But I'm waiting for baby to help me with one of them.. meeeh I'm not even making sense anymore..Ill prolly download music, then update my ipod & wait for baby ..

blog later..
dee

F M L !

holy mother, can you say BORING. I'm in marketing class right now & I don't know why. It started at 8 so I had to wake up at 5, for the record I've never woken up that early for school in my life ever. I find it so hard to concentrate.. All I hear is BLAH BLAH BLAH lol. I gotta get out of here, I'm hungry... I can't wait til 11:45 when it finishes. Lol, the person that's sitting beside me is doing his Math homework, I bet we're not the only one that is bored.. 2nd week of school is already ending, 13 more weeks and the semester is over.. I better get my head in the game, or else I'm going to fail, BIG TIME......

ANYWAYSSSSS, I don't know what else to write about cuz my mind is completely out it's own thing right now. but whatevssssssssssssssssssss.

I'll blog later..

-dee

Second week of school, already half way done.. damn! I saved a lot on my books that i doubt I'll use lol. Paid like 60 for two books, but I already spent 300 on two books.. Started my computer course last night & it killed me I never knew Microsoft Office could be so hard but whatever. During my break went to the photocopy centre with Kamini. Intro to Business was okay today, we did some group work, and I got more in my hands than I can imagine. So what I'm going to do is use my day off tomorrow to get my hands on things that I should do & try to finish them as soon as possible. I also gotta start bringing my laptop to school, I really hate writing. I really think I wanna buy my COMM book though, just the other half of it cuz it's pretty cool. Anyways, I also found my way to the gym today, I got lost and finally found it, I should make use of it since its free.

Change topic...
I was thinking, I miss my boyfriend, I'm so used to seeing him all the time for example after work or school, even when it would just be a few hours to play ball or go to the park, or even go to the mall, or have dinner. I miss those days, I know we will have it again most likely next summer. I feel like school & work have been occupying both our time for each other, that sometimes we're too tired to event talk at night like the usual. All these reason lead to arguments. See I'm used to not seeing my boyfriend then missing them and not fighting with them, and when I see them it's like the happiest moment. But I mean things change, now I'm used to seeing my Ray almost everyday and missing him minutes after we depart from each other. I can never get sick of spending time with him no matter what we're doing, or even if we're having the biggest argument alive. I'm just tired of arguing, I feel really shitty knowing that instead of building that missing-ness we have for each other and make up for it when we see each other, we argue.. It's sad, but hey I'm all for this guy, I'm positive. I hope and pray that things change and go for the better.. I mean I have faith that it will. Every big thing needs hard work right..

Anyways gotta do my school work, blog later..

-dee

@#$%^&*

I finally got over the first week of school, it was a good first week, I still need to buy my books I should do that this week, perhaps tomorrow, so I can start my other school work. Two classes tomorrow, boring ones lol. 14 more weeks til the semester is done =] .. Anyways me and baby watched White out on Friday, after trying to find some Nike Hyperize. Saturday went to Yorkdale to pick up his shoes & watch Sorority Row. Then went to my house afterward, baby helped me with my blackboard assignment, thanks baby :).. Then chilled, must say that Krispy Kreme donuts get me sugar high. Loved the talk I had with baby, at least we came up with some clearing bout our relationship. Im going to miss baby again =( won't see him til Friday night.. which is gay, then I don't see him on Sundays anymore either.. I can't wait til Christmas Break.. I was supposed to go to church today but no.. So I decided to just do my quizzes on blackboard. I guess ill blog later..

ciao

Second Day of school

today was the second day I was in school cuz I didn't have school yesterday. I had a class at 10, I had to bus myself to school, I left around 715ish at square one & got to school around 840ish, so I had to wait. I got in my class, its called PC Essentials and it was so crowded like a mothafucka, just to find out that there was two classes mixed together but guess what, I only have to go to that class 3 times this semester =] only when I have tests everything else is going to be in the computer, pretty cool huh? I got out early of that class because there was nothing to do, the prof said we could leave if we want to, so I did & met up with Klaudine at the computer lab. Gosh I hate that place, it's full of people. Then Jelai, Klaudine, Me & Apple went to the cafe to meet up with Kristina and David & Jeric. Chilled there until my next class started which was Business Math, some shit like that and omgaah I hate that class, it's so boring, prof is monotone, and we already started with a lesson, it's not bad though, it's straight forward math. An hour break after that. Next class was Communications, we didn't really do anything, next was Humanities, geez that class was a lecture, meaning there was 200 or more students, it was so frikking hot in there, all we did was watch CSI. Im in that class til 610, like what the heckk... Tomorrow got class at 8 til 11, yay I get to take the car.. hopefully I'm not late ..

Guess I'll blog later

sleeping in, on a school day.

so didn't really get any sleep last night cuz of certain things. good thing I called baby around 5 and started talking to him from them on til maybe round 9 then i passed out. I woke up around 230. I have school again tomorrow til 6 which is very bummy, but i guess i'll just wait til friday I only have school til 11 & i'm seeing my baby, finally. I haven't seen him since monday, & he wants another tat on his arm, but i said no cuz he already have 5. it's up to him though, if he wants to die then go for it lol. so i was going through klaudine's blog and omg this guy is sex Brent Javier, sexy guy sexy name lol. he's some model from the philippines. are you girls ready to see my new husband? lol

back to school

So, the last two days of my summer was fun, baby brought me to the CN tower, thanks babe =] it was romantic. Then watched Extract yesterday, it was funny.

Today was the first day of school, holy crap so much people.. I got to my first class, it was okay, the prof kept on talking and talking pretty fun class basically it's called intro to business, all our work is all gun be in blackboard (online). we did some ice breaker activities to get to know people and stuff. My second class was the most boring, crap I hate that class, communications, meaning write write write.. and I have that class twice a week =(. No school tomorrow yay. lol

NTS:
1) get my books which will kill me, they cost almost 1000$ altogether if i get new ones
2) finish my first assignment, which is create my profile worth 3%
3) buy school supplies
4) call work

SUMMER 09

watched every movie possible, you name it we watched it + over night at niagara + wonderland season pass + zoo + ontario science centre + drive-in movie + eating at different food places ex. all you can eat sushi at scarborough, frankie tomatoes @ markham, denny's, rainforest cafe, etc. + work + mad shopping + downtown + sheraton hotel to party, swim, & work out + bowling + blue mountain/collingwood + road trips + tornadoes + rain + sleeping in + playing the newest video games + chilling with family + baking + birthday + g2 + taro bubble tea from the chase + basketball + etc.

**
so basically those were the highlight of my summer, I didn't expect much from this summer but I was wrong. I proved myself wrong, like what they say expect the unexpected. Not to mention this is my first summer with the boyfriend, and it was fun we so made the best out of it. There's 3 days left before school starts and we're still continuing to make the best of what's left. After this summer is a next chapter of my life I'm excited yet scared at the same time, I know I'll be okay though, I have all the support I need. And I can't wait til Summer '10. But before that Fall/Winter/Spring first ..

hmm, WWE/RAW live? RAPTORS home opening? CHRIS PAUL? CHRISTMAS BREAK! perhaps go somewhere for SPRING BREAK? .. lol

anyways I'll blog later.. gotta get ready cuz me & baby are going out ..

-dee

i just hate the fact that you can make me terribly sad,
yet love me so much at the very same time, & still love
you with all my heart..

"God talk to me now this is an emergency.."
- Kanye West

LAYOUT

new layout, it was asking for a new one lol. perhaps i should change baby's layout as well? maybe, maybe not. but ya basically just went to grands today & chilled, got home to sleep, and now waiting for baby to call. miss him already.

I just came to a realization that I only have a week left before school starts, & it's not just the regular high school routine I was used to, it's college time, no more baby-ing and skipping classes, time to take things seriously & let go of the past and other things that won't help me be successful in the future.. Well I have been trying, it's hard but it's good, seeing life in a, 'when one door closes another opens' perspective.

Anyways, 7 months ago I was a completely different girl that I am now. Yes I said girl, because girls doesn't know what they want, doesn't know their priorities etc, and I admit it I was like that. Going crazy over boys, acting like I was cool just because I was smoking or drinking or skipping classes or lying to my parents even. Now I can proudly say that I am a grown up young adult that got over those little childish ways. And other than my supporting family and left friends, one person made a big impact of what I am now, and how I make my decisions now..it's him, he knows who he is no need to blabber his name, but off course I have to mention that it's our 7 months today. Don't got much to say but over everything I want to say thank you for being you, for not being a different person around me, or my family, the realness you show every minute of everyday. Thank you for supporting me, and not being afraid to yell at me when I'm wrong, and not hesitating to forgive me when I apologize for the stupid things. For the moments we have spent, I still can't find myself to get sick of you lol. Thank you for changing for me, for seeing what is inside me and not the outside, for telling me I'm beautiful even though I know you're shitting me lol jks, for all the silliness, for the tears that you have caused that made me realize how worth it they are. I can't thank you enough and you know that, the only way I know I can pay you back is by being a good girlfriend, being faithful, and being all for you. Most of all thank you for loving me. I know this doesn't make sense but you know what I mean, you also know why it doesn't make sense, cuz love doesn't make sense ;) lol.. HAPPY 7 MONTHS BABE ♥

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enough cheesyness, today was baby's last day off from his week vacay. We did pretty much what was planned except for CN tower, We watched Holloween 2 on Friday then headed off to Niagara, ate at Rainforest Cafe and instead of our regular seat beside the fountain this time we sat beside three gorillas which baby made fun of. Saturday we watched The Final Destination at Yorkdale, and chilled. Sunday was chilling day, took my car to drive and get our fav bubble tea and rented movies, Yesterday we went to Wonderland then watched District 9 at Collosus at Vaughan, then today is our 7 months, chilled at my house, played video games, went to the park to play football :) lol, and ate at Denny's, speaking of..IM STILL FULL, i don't think i will eat for another 10 years lol, then baby came over to install my printer to my laptop =] and tmrw is just cleaning day for me, and perhaps go out with cate =] .. we'll see.

anyways my mind is falling asleep, ill blog later

-dee

updattttessss

haven't blogged in what maybe a week now? my last blog was the pics from collingwood. But I should update this, perhaps what has been happening & probably get a new layout. Well pretty much have days off this week and next & it's pretty sick since baby has a week off too. I finally got my laptop :) white sony bitch! lol. I also got a new ipod :) been chilling with baby pretty much everyday going places and such :) it's nice cuz it feels like such a late summer aha. But whatevs it's worth it. At least we did all the list on our summer to do's =] I'll end it here, and blog some more when I got time. So long ..

- dee

Collingwood

before leaving


"little big family" lol

with baby & brother


i love this fag :)

Alysha & I

Baby & god daughter jana, HIS favourite little kid :)

Baby bugging my brother lol

Me, Nicah & Alysha

Almost everyone


lol against baby on that hula game thing

LOL @ my brother

before playing ball

Me & Jezz, realllllly tired lol.


Anyways, the weekend was fun. I just can't wait for next year :)
Im gun get my laptop on thursday or friday soo goodbye to this old ugly laptop lol
=]

weekend getaway.

The past few days have been rough, actually the past few months. Losing people in my life is not that pleasant of a thing to hear, but like what they say, when one door closes another opens. I thank God of what I have regardless, especially family, boyfriend, & remaining friends. I must say I have my up & down moments once in awhile, but hey that's life, it's like a mountain you're trying to get up at & once you reach the top it's worth everything. It's not a smooth ride, there's a lot of roughness throughout the way, but I can make it. Once in awhile we need a getaway from all the bullshit that life or let's say the road that we're trying to go through, & I'm finally getting a well deserved one. This weekend, after long hours from work, & dealing with rude people I finally get a getaway along with family, friends, & boyfriend :). Speaking of baby, I must say I was impressed with his blog I loved it =) & thanks for picking me up from work the other day! the little things that you do to make my day & make my tiredness worth it. So tomorrow we're leaving for Blue Mountain after baby's work with Jezz & Alisha on the back seat lol, but before that we're gun look for some computers first cuz I'm in need of a laptop. Since I'm gun help baby drive, if he needs it, we're going to take the side road, which means it's all farmland lol. But it okay, I love fresh air. Anyways, I'll blog & post up some pics when I get the chance to next week.

- dee

you're my song ..

You're my favorite song and always will be. At times,
you're an annoying pop song. At others, you're a sweet
acoustic melody. We are two completely different people,
but we came together and it worked. But at some point
you became a breakup song. For a long time I turned
off my radio, hoping the silence would help me. But
tonight I caved in. You will always be my favorite melody.

I LOVE YOU BABE :)

always,
your girlfriend

Boy Meets World

Cory: Ever since I was young I never understood anything about the world,
and I never understood anything that happened in my life.
The only thing that ever made sense to me was you, and how I felt about you.
That's all I've ever known and that's enough, that's enough for me,
for the rest of my life. Topanga, we gonna get married?
Topanga: Yea, we are
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Cory: Mom, Listen, I haven't been together with Topanga for twenty-two years, but we *have* been together for sixteen. 'Kay, that's a lot longer than most couples have been together. I mean, when we were born, you told me that we used to take walks in our strollers together in the park. When we were two, we were best friends, I mean, I, I knew everything about this girl. I knew her favorite color. I knew her favorite food. Then we became six, you know, and Eric made fun of me because it wasn't cool to have a best friend that was a girl or even know a girl, so for the next seven years I threw dirt at her. I like to call those "the lost years". Then when I was thirteen, Mom, she put me up against my locker and she kissed me. I mean, she gave me my first kiss. She taught me how to dance. She was always talking about these crazy things and I never understood a word she said. All I understood was that she was the girl I sat up every night thinking about, and when I'm with her I feel happy to be alive. Like I can do anything. Even talk to you like this. So that's, that's what I feel is love, Mom... When I'm better because she's here... and now she won't be. So we're finished.

I miss Boy meets world, I loved watching that.. I think that's where I got the idea of a dream boy.. I'm a sucker for guys like Cory Matthews & the love him & Topanga have. I know mine isn't as bad, but I know it will be better as soon as possible =] cuz it's all love.

vent vent vent.

I just love the fact that you out of all the people would hold such a grudge against me. Out of all the years I have known you, and of all the things I have done for you, the favors, the little things you hold a grudge against me over some little thing? All I want to say is GROW UP. As kids I would understand the fact that you tell someone that 'oh i'm not talking to her' dude, get over it. It's a little thing.. If I list all the things that I should have held a grudge against you, trust me, mine wouldn't mean nothing. But honestly whatever, this is just a way for me to vent out, I don't care if you read it or not, but I hope you do and realize that you got to let go of some pride.

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Anyways nuff bull, my gaah I worked everyday this week except Tuesday,oh well nuff money, plus i don't really have to go shopping cuz I already got everything I want =] especially the Adidas sweater from Aritzia =] Ive been waiting for my size and they finally got it lol.I have work tomorrow again, then seeing baby after, perhaps eat some dinner & watch Time Traveler's Wife. Monday is work again, then Tuesday prolly gun go out with the girls and Wednesday with Cate. Friday is Collingwood =] can't wait I need a get away!!! I also can't wait for the 26th til baby get's his week vacay from work :) :) :) ..

no offense mother nature..

Yesterday was pretty okay. Had my first shortest shift 3 hours lol. It felt fast cuz it wasn't busy at all. I like working mondays lol. Today was my day off, so I picked up Jezz and off we went shopping. Met up with cate afterward after her interview and OH EM GEE she got the job at costa blanca, which is great cuz that means, DISCOUNT :) lol. I kinda wanna apply at Town shoes lol. From what I heard from cate aha. After spending, dropped off cate home & dropped jezz, now waiting for my baby to come over, i miss him, so it's good he's coming over =) .. i love that sleepy head that falls asleep on me every night, literally lol.

& honestly the weather is so shit, no offense mother nature... but give us some good days c'mon pls and thank you =]

Friday - Sunday

Friday
- couldn't see baby
- got Klaudine
- Milton is FAAARR
- met up with Cate
- met up with Julius, Edward, Jonnie, & Rainier
- Go-Karting with everyone (funn, haven't been go karting for awhile)
- Wal-Mart to buy movies and pop
- Julius place to watch Haunting at Connecticut
* live day, we should do it again.. btw CONGRATS cate for getting the job at Town Shoes =] now imma get shoes from you =]

Saturday
- worked
- met up with baby
- watched GI JOE
- chill at home
* not only Channing Tatum is hot but GI JOE is a must see movie. It's pretty sick.

Sunday
- worked
- watched Perfect Getaway with baby
* sick movie..

mother nature isn't mothering after all..

So I was supposed to have work yesterday but my manager called me right after I got ready to tell me I wasn't working, and that I was working today instead so that was bummy, I decided to take the car and meet up with Cate to go help her find a job. Wow I haven't had a girl's day out for a long time. Then had to go home right away since Cate left and baby was gun pick me up from home and we were going to go to Marcellinus to jog & work out. After that we just went home to play CLUE which was fun lol.
Today, I worked, it was odd for a Thursday and not being busy I guess it was cuz Mother Nature gave us a beautiful day today. Speaking of mother nature, she's not being really mothering to us lately. I don't know what's happening but that storm, tornado, whatever you call it was weird. It was like hail and heavy thunderstorm. So I won't be seeing the boyfriend tomorrow since his cousins are over =( bummer but it's okay I guess, hope you have fun baby. I also hope those people are really your cousins! Anyways I got my school schedule I found out that ill be at school
MONDAY:
10:50 - 11:40
11:45 - 1:30
TUESDAY:
9:00 - 11:40
2:30 - 4:15
WEDNESDAY:
OFF
THURSDAY:
9:55 - 11:40
11:45 - 1:30
2:30 - 4:15
4:20 - 6:05
FRIDAY:
8:05 - 10:45
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pretty sick schedule huh? Hopefully it doesn't change.. I'm pretty scared for college, something new but I'm happy I'm moving on.

- dee

line..

Draw a line, & it's up to you to place me where you want to.

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Right now, I know I'm below it..


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long weekend.

Friday:
Ended up going to Ontario Science Centre, it was good especially the imax movie. Saw some of baby's girls/boys/friends but as usual didn't get introduced to so that was a downer. But then again I guess it's no biggie to him, I guess in the long run I'll just learn how not to care when it comes to those kind of situation. We also watched Funny People, it was funny. Definitely a must see.

Saturday:
Had to work from 1 - close. But whats more bummy is boyfriend promised me he was going to be there after my work to wait for me and pick me up. But instead he made me wait for 1 and a half hour because he was at the beach with people I don't know. Mind you it's our 6 months. The only fun part was playing battleship.

Sunday:
Woke up early for church, went to church with babe for the first time ever, I prayed for so many things I have been praying for for the longest time. I hope they come my way soon. Their not even for me, their for us. Anyways, we decided to go to Niagara afterward and no lie it was mad traffic, Ray called one of his many many girls so she told us one way to get there faster and it helped. We went to the Ripley's Museum and that Mirror Maze, they were sick. Before going home we played at Midway and got 2000+ tickets which earned me a big dolphin :) and other little things. I love that place. Went home afterward and ate some take out and played mouse trap lol. Then just chilled our night away.

Monday:
Went to my grandparents to spend time with the fam. It was pretty fun.

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dee

P.S
happy belated 6 months hun, i love you. I know we have been through a lot, through hell and back, through laughter and tears, through fights and just plain loving. I don't know why lately it seems like everything is changing, especially the love you got for me. I have been noticing the space we're starting to build between each other. Don't get me wrong, I do love you a lot, and I'm scared you're sick of me, especially when u break up with me or you ask me to break up with you. It's sad cuz I'm not sure of how you feel for me anymore. But I'm proud of us, no one thought we would make it this far and we did. I know we're gun keep proving everyone wrong. I'm sorry I know I'm difficult to deal with sometimes but I know you, you like challenge and I am a challenge so I hope you don't give up. But no lie you are a challenge as well, but no way I can give up, this is the best yet hardest thing ever. I love you.

Faithfully ..

I know you gave a chance to be with me
I'm not sayin’ that this ain’t meant to be
Boy I’m risking my heart to love you faithfully
When ever I’m over my head I want you to keep on holding on
cause no matter what you say or do
I will still love you

Boy you’re my pride, my everything
and anything means everything
and everything I want is you
I want to spend my life with you
hate to tell you, you need to do
everything you want me to do

love me faithfully
here’s my hand
take good care of me
just know you’ll always have a shoulder to cry on
come and rescue me
take my had
love it faithfully
you’ll always have a shoulder to cry on

cause sometimes its still hard to believe
we made it through our lives and doubts
when ever you lost it
I’ll always be there

you’ll always be the one to remain in my heart
I can only promise one thing baby you’ll always have a place in my heart

Boy I will love you forever and ever
come baby I promise you that I will never
lose my faith in us
I promise everything will be ok

Baby whenever we are together
whenever I doubt boy you make things all better
you know that I am sensitive to all the thing you can give
all I want is you in my life

baby we just happened.

You used to tell me that I was your pride & joy. That you love me, that you're all for me, that it's just me, that you will marry me someday, that I was going to be the mom of your kids, and everything else.

But I'm sick of words, show me actions.. I've got a lot to say but I'll leave it.
Whatever happens, i still love you, always will.

dee

Had a day off today and I basically laid my bum on my bed & txt the boyfriend the whole time until maybe round 3ish. He picked me up, played some ball & watched 500 Days of Summer, pretty good movie it was funny. I'm surprised it wasn't as boring as I thought it would be. Even baby loved it, it was funny.. but the funniest thing is the guy that was beside us lol. He honestly made my day, it's not everyday you see a guy watching a chick flick by himself and being so into it. Now, I'm just chillaxing listening to music and such. I got work tomorrow, one more day and my weekend begins, finally..... anyways ill blog again soontimes, later days..

- dee

Bye bye computer..

so this morning I had to wake up to my computer giving up on me, my desktop that is. After 5 years it gave up on me lol, so I have to settle for this laptop until I get a new one. Me and baby are planning to get matching mac books before school starts lol. Anyways didn't have work today and I changed the ayout of my room, I also cleaned up my closet. I ended up with two full garbage bags lol.
blog ya later ..
im too lazy lol

dee

not bad.

What the heck is wrong with the weather? Honestly, the past 3-4 days was like pure rain and now it's all sunny. I'm not complaining bout the sun but that's how I get sick all the time because of the change in weather. I never know how to dress for the weather. But anyways, I just woke up few minutes ago and was planning the weekend with my boyfriend =]. I'm looking forward to it, cuz I actually realized that our summer plans are almost done, we're almost at the end of it. At least my summer didn't turn out that bad like loafting and things. Because I have been on that loafting tip, I don't want to go back, I'm happy that I'm moving on and not staying in one place and being productive of my time. Y'all can go have fun loafting, I choose to live my life & I'm happy with where I'm going. But I won't lie partying sometimes isn't bad as long as it's not everyday. Speaking of parties here are some of the pics from mine & Julius's little get together.


Edward, Jonnie, Jayar, & Richard singing happy birthday to me & julius

With Cate .. my pink eye was bothering me =(

Some of us.

Anyways enough of this, I kind of miss Klaudine! well not really lol kidding now I have to drive further to come pick her up and bring her back to civilization lol =). I also miss my two little cousins, they left last night after sleeping over for a few days, it surprised me that they liked my boyfriend that much lol. They bugged him the whole time he was here lol. I also woke up today to my boyfriend's voice, it was prolly one of the cutest moments after a long time, it made my day. Anyways that's it for now, I'll blog whenever I get the chance to.

- dee

something needs to be changed ..

You turn to a completely different person.. You know what i'm talking bout. I won't go on in here blabbering bout you, cuz i know how much you hate that.. Saying sorry to me makes me feel happy that you still got the potential to change. Also, telling me that you need help makes me wanna cry because it states the fact that you want to change, since I've always want to be the girl you will change for. But I have been trying to help you ever since we started, I just don't know how to anymore.. So please, if you know just let me know.I'll get to my point now, something needs to be changed. I'm telling you this because I want us to work, regardless of anything, I love you.

New layout

My blog was asking for a new layout lol so I changed it. I keep hearing my dad bugging my brother to play ps3 with him and my brother keeps responding with a "you need more practice" lol, I'm so jealous with their relationship. I wish I had that kind of father-daughter relationship. Well I used to, but not anymore I'm a tad older now and those kiddish ways are out of the way. Anyways I had work yesterday and we had a really funny staff meeting. Athina came over after work & James came along, they stayed til like 12ish. It was I guess nice seeing and talking to them about life & things. The weather is so bummy, it's okay though I'm seeing my boyfriend and spending time with him =). Sorry babe that I can't make it on Saturday or Sunday, I'll make it up to you!

FAILURE.

okay so I can't help but think that this summer is such a fail. Honestly I was looking forward to it, couldn't wait for it to come.. & now that it's here it's the worst summer yet. All I do is work, I don't get no excitement in my life right now. Before summer came we made it a point that we'll do all these shit, and now we don't even have time to do anything. For fucks sakes I feel like we don't even do anything anymore. Especially now that it's almost coming to an end, you got your own thing going on now. Like ball is more important than me, well that's how I feel anyways. You can't even talk to me at night anymore, all you do is fall asleep, I know you're tired and all but I am too and I still make it a priority to talk to you just because I didn't talk to you for the whole day. The only time we actually get to talk talk is when we're arguing, other than that you'd just sleep. I don't want to go on and ramble about things that are immature but all I'm asking for is your attention, and a bit of your time. I won't count on it, but I won't lose anything if i try right? Like how I've been trying to earn YOU, your trust, your love, your everything for the past months. I hope the day will come when you'll just come up to me and say, "I'm giving you everything you've been trying to earn". I'll be waiting....

always,
Dee

Yesterday was bomb, before going to work I had to wake up extremely early to get ready for my placement test at Humber. I picked up Jezz in the morning & drove there to write my test. It was a pretty easy computerized Math test. We had to bus from there to Sq since my mom took the car. Went mad shopping lol shopped til I had to go to work at 5 =( lol.. 3 more things on the list : juicy couture purse, adidas sweater, ipod.
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I did my hair today, it's supposed to have a lighter base color but it didn't work that well, but it has nuff highlights. spent nuff money on that as well, which means now im broke lol. so the 3 things on my list have to wait lol. I also spent time with my boyfriend today since my work shift was canceled. I was so close to giving in to him buying me an ipod for my bday present but no =] lol.. BTW YOU STILL OWE ME SOMETHING FOR LOSING OUR BET :).. We also came up with an idea of going to Montreal. I'm excited =]
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no more facebook for me as well.

Birthday Weekend.

Friday was sick, even though it sucked.. My boyfriend took me to the zoo & we saw nuff animals, I never knew there were that much kinds of monkeys aha anyways it was good while it lasted, I didn't want anything for my bday but baby knows what i want from him which even made me tear by telling him. After the long day of walking at the zoo we went to STC to chill & watch I Love You Beth Cooper, it sucked ! i fell asleep lol. To make things worst, I GOT PINK EYE ON MY BIRTHDAY!

Saturday I didn't expect much from the park thing because i know there wasn't much to expect. Thank you so much for the people that came, you guys made it fun & took my mind off the people that didn't want to come & didn't even bother greeting me on my birthday. It was just a piss off that my boyfriend had to leave and he didn't even spend time with me, instead he chose to throw a football with my brother. After all the talks & the jokes we had off we went to julius's place to celebrate mines, his & his twins birthday, they turned 19 =]. There was a lot of alcohol, which everyone finished except for me since i promised my boyfriend i wasn't going to drink. But the night was full of fun, I haven't had that much fun in awhile. I missed my friends.

Today is just church for me, & i'm currently pissed off at the moment, I hate when you get so mad at me for not txting you back for 5 minutes, you ignore me for 5 hours & you don't expect me to get mad. It's not fair that you're doing this to me like im just a piece of shit to you, put yourself in my shoe, if i didn't text you back for 5 hours you would freak!i dnt give a damn if your battery is dieing, but don't ignore me. You wouldn't want me doing that to you. & you act like it's nothing? well you're wrong cause it is something. I'm pissed off at you at the moment. How do I know you're not doing shit behind my back when you ignore me for that long. I don't care who you're with, before you left we promised each other we were going to txt each other. My birthday weekend is already ruined and you don't give two fucks about it.

Tomorrow i have a test at humber, I'm going to drive there then go back home & I'm bringing Jezz with me so when we get back I should go shopping. I need to treat myself & get away from all these stresses.

By the way thank you for everyone that greeted me & tried cheering me up, I appreciatte every bit of it. Thanks Klaudine for writing that thing for me. Thanks Jezz, Lauren, Jonnie, Julius, & Reymar for coming to the park & also special shout to Cate, Edward, Kristine, Rainier, Ivy, Ashley, Gloria, Jayar, Richard & Richard's girlfriend?(i forgot her name lol) for making mine julius's & jerome's birthday fun! thanks for all the cheers, jokes, laughs, love, & drinking up for our birthday to be fun :)

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NTS: look for a place to go camping.

Haven't updated since what Thursday? lol, Friday took the day off and went off with my mom to do our nails, like finally even if it was just for a bit it felt nice finally paying for myself and stuff. It also felt nice doing because of the outcome since I had a day off at work and didn't have to worry about getting ready and blah. Me nd baby got our pair of chucks that day as well =] they look cute when we wear them together lol.Then we watched Bruno, it was hilarious but gross. Please don't bring kids and go watch that movie, it's honestly not for kids. Friday was also Athina's & James's one year, so shout out to both of you ! Congratulations, im happy for both of you =] & love you both
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Saturday, had work from 12 to 7 and baby picked me up went home, changed, then went to my god daughter's birthday party. It was pretty cool just hanging with fam & boyfriend, I think my life is finally settling. I think that now I'm finally realizing what real life is, just a taste of it at least. No more immature ways, no more slangs, no more of that old things i used to do as a kid. I'm kind of proud of myself for moving on with life with no one stopping me.


Picture of me, Jana (god daughter's sister), & the boyfriend
She really knew how to pose, we taught her well =P

Sunday was good, went to church, then took out my little brother to play ball with my boyfriend, even though it was boring, it was fun watching my lil brother & my boyfriend running ball.
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yesterday was my work day as well, it was pretty slow, but I'm sick so i didn't mind the slowness, and today I have a day off, so Im going to see the boyfriend =], tomorrow is work from 3 - 9 & thursday from 10 - 9 , good freaking hours, tiring but worth it.

-dee

"im flossing my teeth"

OMG OMG OMG I'm officially G2 certified bitchessss =] I'm so happy, I feel like I've been waiting for it for too long ..Anyways I can finally drive now, when I get my insurance lol I can't wait.
Anyways two days ago went shopping with my boyfriend, tell me how I bought a 135$ guess bag & a 250 guess shoe, LOL then I changed my mind, but I can't take it back sooooo too bad for me lol.
I've been working every frikking day.. I need a break, but it's whatever cuz it's money.
I got work today again, and I hope it won't be as busy ..

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Yesterday was July 1st, Canada day & my 5 months with the boyfriend. Ended up watching public enemy, but it was so boring, for me at least. I'm sorry babe I just really think it's boring lol. Surprisingly my dad knew bout all these things aha so that was a good conversation during dinner time. After chilling at home baby had to go home, & it made me sad since we didn't spend a lot of time due to the fact that it was a wednesday. What a frikking holiday.
To the people that said a quick prayer for me to be able to get a new job.. GUESS WHAT.. I GOT THE JOB :) i'm so happy. & they actually give me good frikkin hours. Thank you LORD. I just really hated the fact that I worked at the other place without getting that much hours. Today was supposed to be my interview, but they actually made me start. I worked for almost 6 hours today, which is tiring but thinking about it, that's what I asked for. & I know it will be worth it :)

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& for you .. my one & only, I just want to say thank you for the 5 months, like always for putting up with my attitude issues, for spending every time you can with me, for treating me like no one else did, for not being afraid to speak up when you know I'm wrong, for being there no matter what, for those talks I never had with anyone else, for being yourself around me, & most of all thank you for seeing something in me that made you change your old ways, & lastly thank you for the 'sorrys' you've been stating lately that would just make the fight unworthy of anything. I LOVE YOU UGLY <3

-dee

GROSS WEATHER.

So ever since Friday, all i've been hearing was something bout Michael Jackson or his songs or something. I know he died and all, and a lot of people are sad about it. But does it mean that you guys have to play his songs and stuff just because he died. When clearly you guys didn't listen to him when he was alive. Well too bad, we can't bring him back to life now can we? Saturday came and picked up Klaudine from work with my boyfriend playing MJ's songs and they go on ranting and ganging up on me. But whatever you guys love me :) lol. After dropping Klaudine home after her work, me & boyfriend went to my little cousin's birthday party at Sheraton hotel. Sheraton wasn't that biggie to me cuz I'm always there, but when I saw our rooms, it was sick. 3rd floor and there was a back door that was few steps away from the pool and the weight room. The pool was whirlpool meaning the water was heated, there was a hot tub, and a big ass gym. When we got settled me & baby decided to walk around downtown and watch The Hangover, it was funny but at the same time gross lol. Since we already watched transformers and there wasn't anything else to watch =P. I also saw Justin Alvero, LOL i remembered those days with Athina & Alyssa. Around 1230ish, me & baby dropped my parents to get their cars and went home :) It was a fun day.
Sunday was just work, gosh I was so tired that I slept at 9. It even came to the point where baby called me last night and i just slept on him, sorry babe.
Today I officially started my sleeping in days :) lol, I slept in until 1. Felt so nice. I woke up to really crappy weather, hopefully this weather doesnt continue until wednesday since it's a holiday and it's our 5 months :) I'm excited, I wonder what his gift is..lol kidding. But ya I guess I'm just going to clean my room for the whole day. Throw out all the garbage I dont need anymore and stuff. hopefully the day goes by quick. I miss my boyfriend =(

con-GRAD-ulations.

I can finally say I'm officially done & over high school. Like what Andrew Song our Valedictorian stated, our life is like a movie and we're moving on to make the best movie out of our life. I'm proud of everyone that made it through four years, the memories will last, the friendships, the hardships, the skipping, the easy teachers, the dramas, etc. everything was worth while. I must say that lining up and spending the whole day standing on heels never felt better. I got diploma, it was something I worked for and I've earned it. Now it's just the beginning of my real life. No more kiddish things, this is where reality begins. I was quite disappointed that the special people I wanted to be there wasn't there, I won't say much bout my night but all I can say was breaking down after all my stress never felt so good. It just took one simple action to break me down, and my balloon of tears overflowed with tears for the whole night. I should go shopping to make me feel better, but me & baby are going shopping next week. I believe? =) so I guess I should just get ready to see him tonight. perhaps play some ball and enjoy the weather =]

YAY, my internet is back.. Today is the hottest day of the week, frikking 35 degrees out. So decided to spend the day with my boyfriend.
Grad is tomorrow, hopefully it's not long even though i know it will be but whatever.

Ill blog later.
-dee

no mood.

Why is today giving me sh*t, honestly I have been home since yesterday minding my own business until everyone decided to ruin it. Like first I'm at the library right now because my mom dragged me here to help her with something because BELL is having troubleshooting with their internet. Geez, Rogers was so much more better. Why tell me why my boyfriend would use 'reverse phsychology' on me? like who does that, no offence. But are you just trying to find a way to piss me off? and you go off telling me that I always pick the fights? but whatever. Like honestly once I say I dont have facebook anymore, I DONT. Like let's be real here. Anyways I just wanted to vent off things here since I think thats the only thing that can help me throught times like this.
I just can't wait to go out with him tomorrow, and watch the hangover? It's gun be such a nice day and hopefully everything goes well.
Ill blog more later if Bell is quick enough to fix problems.

-DEE

fina-efin-lly

Today was my last exam, it was more of like the hardest and one of the most important exams I had to do. It's Chem. I couldn't think of anything for the whole weekend but this exam. No matter how much I studied I was still confused with a lot of things. I was even complaining to my classmates about how nervous and about how much I didn't wanna do it. But like what baby said it's better to get part marks done nothing at all. Surprisingly the exam was fairly easy, I mean there wasn't any surprises that wasn't on the review. I actually knew how to answer them. Thank you Lord for answering my prayers . After exams me, Lauren & Jenny went to eat pho. Wow that's the last time i ate at that restaurant being a highschool student. The memories throughout the years in that restaurant are still fresh lol. Can't wait for grad, and I can finally say I'm proud of myself.

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Friday was good, after baby running 10 laps at the Gonzaga track, we went to watch the proposal, what a funny movie. And saturday was really really really flop plus it was gloomy outside which made it worst. Until baby came over round 930 to save my day =) mom bought pizza and me and baby rented from hell, which was actually the first horror movie that I didn't cover my eyes and cling on to baby. Funny thing is we both fell asleep lol cuz it was so long.

Anyways Sunday was Father's day. I'm thankful for the dad that god has given me, I love him a lot. And as for my other dad, i miss you, the fact that you don't recognize me as much and the fact that you don't show the proper way of having a daughter hurts me a lot. I know it's not you're fault that we haven't seen each other for almost 10 years maybe more. But the thought that you remember me and give me a call once in a while honestly wouldn't kill you. But I guess you have your own life now and I hope you still will never remember your one and only Danielle, Like what my aunts and my grandparents always tell me, "you're dad will always love you no matter what". Those words are the only thing that are making me not forget about you. I know it's mean but you can't blame a child that you left and never once remembered. Regardless, I was thought to forgive no matter the situation, forgiveness is love and I love you. Hope that connects. Happy Fathers Day, even if you're not reading this, at the end of the day you still are my father, I hope to see you at the proper time.

- DEE

FLOP.

LOL, just read Athina's blog and that picture of their future son is cute lmao. He's pudgey wifey :P. I'm happy that James is doing his hard work on your relationship, honestly, after the long years of knowing James, this the time I can honestly say that I'm proud of him! I'm happy for you two and I love you two a lot :).
As for Barrie, IT'S FLOP. Stupid weather had to ruin everything. I think I'm going to let Athina & James have their cute moment together or am I sensing the 'third wheel' status again? OMG, last summer was already enough for me guys. Almost everyday I was a third wheel, but it's okay :) lol. Since the boyfriend doesn't want to spend the day with me which is very dry I guess I'll have to find something else to do. Is my face that ugly that he doesn't wanna spend Saturdays with me no more? hmm. I think so lol. Who's down? movie? eat? shopping? what? whatever, I don't want to be stuck here. Anyways my exam review is being anal right now. I don't understand jack shit, but when I look at my tests for those units I did a pretty good job.. But whatever I'll blog later, or tomorrow, or whenever..

Later days.
-Dee

P.s.
I honestly slept last night feeling contented and happy. Happy that I thought he finally came to his senses that he should do something bout this. I mean it's breaking us, making us fall apart and yet we are blinded by the fact that it's the other persons fault. I guess I should just let things flow, it is what it is now. I'm not just blaming it all on you, but me too. But the fact that It's so hard to get within that wall you built is making me lose hope. I just hope you realize, that it isn't a joke no more.

I miss you.

I miss the times when we would fight and I didn't have to give in & you would just say 'i miss you ' and everything would be fine. I miss the cute moments we would have together just staring at each other like we were the only ones in the world. I miss the 'I love yous' that you would let me know every minute of everyday. I miss laughing with you like nothing else mattered. I miss the big bear hugs you would give me in front of everyone. I miss the late night phone calls, when we would just talk and talk. I miss you telling me that I was the only one for you. I miss the times when I would cry and you'd just comfort me and make sure I was okay or when I would cry and you'd just kiss me and forgive the things I have said or done. I miss the cheesyness you would tell me. I miss the times I felt that I was the only one that mattered for you. I miss knowing everything, from where you are to what time you're coming to see me. I miss just cuddling on my couch with you and falling asleep together. I miss the times you would surprise me by telling me you would skip work and spend the day with me even if it means we would just sleep on my bed until noon. I miss you worrying about me all the time. I miss you telling me that 'US' is your future. I miss all the silliness we would never have now adays. I miss getting along with you. I miss knowing the fact I didn't have to worry about a thing, cuz you got me no matter what. I miss the little sweet letters you would always give me because you thought of me wherever you were. I also miss the person that gave me a promise ring and promised me all the things he could and actually make an effort to do them. I miss the old you, that didn't get annoyed by me all the time. I miss the old you that never wanted to go even if I tell you to go home because you fell asleep while watching with me. I miss fixing your clothes. I miss the silly time on the court when you would change and you would hide behind me so no one can see you.I miss the tears of joy. I miss our little walks at the park when we would just talk about our relationship & our future plans. I miss you agreeing with me and promising me you'll do certain things and looking me in the eye. I miss the old you that would never blame me about anything. I miss the person that never thought bad things about me.

I miss you, I miss us, I miss everything..
I want my ugly back.

No matter the situation, as I said



I'll always love you.


-DEE

mr. unfaithful

SAY HELLO TO MR. UNFAITHFUL

signs he's cheating..

1. Mr. Mood swings.
He will act differently towards you by either being extra kind or extremely mean. Your partner may choose to love you more than ever by treating you affectionately at times and other times he may be acting aggressively and picking a fight about something that he never used to before. Everything becomes your fault, you are a tyrant and he starts saying that he feels suffocated. The next day you are the most beautiful creature he has ever seen in his life, you are the moon and the stars, the whole world, you are... well you get my point. Unless they have been diagnosed with bipolar depression, this is a major sign that something is up.

2. Change of routine.
This is also a major sign that he may be spending his time with someone else. For example, if he has been calling you at 9 p.m. every day in the past and now you don’t get that call anymore for a significant period of time, and by that I mean approximately 2 weeks, then you know something is going on. If everything else is constant in routine, then the behavior that follows that routine should be the same also. This is a major warning sign and along with it come other signs that something else is occupying his time.

3. Change in leisure time with "the boys".
If suddenly your partner starts spending more time with his friend or friends and less time with you this could mean that the friend or friends may be another girl that he would rather spend his time with. Don’t misinterpret this sign. If you have just had an argument and he storms out upset and doesn’t come back for an hour or two, this is not an indication of infidelity. However, if for a few weeks now every other night is "Hun, I’m going out with my boys", then you have every right to be suspicious.

4. What I’d like to call "The mystery man"
All of sudden everything becomes a secret. You don’t know where he is and who he is with. He gives you one word answers to questions of his whereabouts. All of a sudden he screens your calls or hardly ever picks up when you call and takes hours to return your messages. He all of a sudden has to take grandma to the doctor or his pet had an appointment you had no idea about. Work became more demanding or his best friend had a crisis. Basically any excuse that he can come up with to cover the time that he went missing.

5. The NEW friend.
One day within your conversation your partner reveals that he has become friendly with someone of the opposite sex. He tells you that this new friend is in his life but that they are "just friends". If this is common practice in your relationship, all the power to you. But in most serious relationships friends of the opposite sex don’t come into the picture unless they are also in a relationship and you hang out all together as couples. This new friend may become a love interest some day.

6. LESS SEX/NO SEX
I was thinking how to put this in a more respectful way but I am just going to come out and say it. You have now become sexually frustrated. No more sex or a lot less sex with your partner. This is a major sign that your mate is getting some somewhere else. You try and try, you put on your special perfume, highest pumps you own and your best outfit. You have used all the tricks that you know would have had him begging for more. Nothing works! Well listen, unless he has some great excuse, like a nasty rash he doesn’t want to infect you with (but then again, that’s a sign within itself), there is no good enough reason why he would not want to enjoy a great night of exciting fun.

7. Change in grooming practice.
He all of a sudden starts to smell better than ever, wears nicer clothes, shines his shoes and sprays a little extra cologne when he goes out. Well, well if it isn’t Mr. Fabio himself! The days at the gym may start getting longer and instead of 2 days a week it has now turned into 5. Clean shaven all the time, he is hardly the man you used to know. Believe me, this new grooming practice is not because his mom made a comment about his appearance, it’s because there is someone he has his eye on. There is no way a man will go out of his way to look better for you now; he has become comfortable and secure in what he has and it’s time for something new. So, ladies, keep an eye out for this one.

I'm currently at the library supposed to be studying for CHEM lol. Along with Athina, buggin James to come pick her up, and Klaudine trying to study. Geez man my brain is hurting like a mother. But before this me & Klaudine went to Denny's to eat breakfast. We're fulllllll. lol big time. Anyways I got cosmo exam tomorrow, but clearly I'm not studying for that since it's not that imprortant. But whatever.

Plans this week are study study study,
then friday shopping, get Athina & Klaudine after their exam. Then watch a movie with Klaudine, then see my baby at 10.

LOL @ Athina doing 2 questions on her Math exam. <3

Exams started today, I'm officially over & done Religion :) my hard work of studying yesterday along with Klaudine, Athina & friends payed off. Like I literally had to go in one of those study rooms so I can concentrate lol, since all we were doing at the table were laughing and fooling around. I finally seen my wifey, after a long time, I missed her gosh. But like what I told her before I left the library 'ill be coming out of my shell soon, and you're mine' lol. Special thanks to my boyfriend that brought me to the Erin Mills library to study with me and explain the things I didn't understand :) thank you hun. That's one of the advantages of having a smart boyfriend :) lol, then he treated me out for dinner, since I wasn't that hungry I just shared with him lol. Sorry for pinching you a lot :) .. lol remember what pain is =P

Tomorrow, is my day off, which means studying again. But I don't need to study much since it's cosmetology. Hope I can see baby tomorrow, and/or Friday :)

- Dee

LOL, failed my chemistry lab exam.. well i think. but honestly everyone did. that's how you know this time it's not only me slacking.. too much stress, but ill be done with it in a week. then I'll be free :), when i said i was going to hibernate i did lol. but im gunn come out of my shell soon :):):), can't wait. I missed my friends, miss the movie nights, I miss the random chillages everywhere, I miss downtown with Athina, I miss summer 08.

if you guys have nothing better to say bout my situation, jst keep your comment to yourself. got a problem with my posts, then don't read my posts. who invited you to read them anyways? no one, so if you're gun hate keep the hate to yourself thank you very much ..

WTF, i'm so stressed. STRESSED MORE THAN EVER.. stressed to the point where I let it ruin the relationship, ruin things that I have left, ruin everything. FUCK ME!.. when it comes to stress, I'm such a sucky person. So much isu's, tests, exams, papers due, etc. and so little time..

Thank you for holding me down, & holding on to me no matter the situation. Forgive my stubbornness & the hardships I put you through, I swear I'll owe you one when this is all over. I love you.

-

yea , we've had our fights and we've put each other through hell . We've picked each other up when one of us fell . We'll always be together ,because i honestly don't know where I'd be without you .

So about my last post, I guess I'll keep this one .. lol anyways, the weekend was bomb digity. Friday was one of my best Fridays yet. Baby really made up for me missing prom. Being away from all the crap & stress & blah's we're both going through, even just for a day & the next really felt good. I guess I can also say that, that was his gift for me for our fourth monthsary :). It's cute, and it should be a must again.. Perhaps my birthday? this time, my treat :). Over all it was so fun, it also brought down the troubles we were having as for our relationship. I guess we just really missed each other. Watching fireworks was such a cute scenery, I so want fireworks when I get married, or like when something special happens lol. Wonderland was also bomb, even though we were both tired, I have 4 new stuffed toys :) lol, the family is growing aha. No one really ever did any of these things for me until now, & I'm loving it.. Thank you Baby, YOU'RE THE BEST!! but you gotta stop spoiling me! I LOVEEEEEE YOU

Now, it's back to reality.. few more days and I'm finally going to be stress free. Can't wait =P


i so want a copy of this pleaseeeee ? =]

no more facebook,
no more blogger,
no more nothing
for now ..

CIAO!

UN-stressed?

I'm finally done my cosmetology practical exam. It was pretty hard doing Maryse's hair today because of her daughter, but she was so cute. I love her to death lol. Thank God I finished without having to cry, I was about to but no. I'm still stressed but I think I'll get through it.

can't wait for tomorrow :), I really really really really really really need a get away. I also really really really really really really need to finish packing lol. FUCK MY LIFE.

SO like I think I need a new layout. I'm getting bored of my one right now. Wow for the past week until now I haven't skipped a day of school, & I'm hella proud of myself :) .. Shit, I have two weeks of school left and I'm still procrastinating about my ISU's that are due by next week. KILL ME NOW! just kidding, I'd rather live lol. The last few days of high school is going to be really rough for me, but what hard work pays off. I'm proud of myself, I'm actually graduating on time without failing one class & having more credits than I need, when I fully doubted myself before.

I don't know if it's just me or what.. but I feel like right now there's a lot of tension between us. The way you talk to me is so different compared to the way you talked to me months ago. I feel like this is the only way I can vent this out, & don't get me wrong I'm doing this not because I'm hating but because I care, I still care, & always will. Ya, we don't fight every night, but I feel like you're getting bored of the same old me. Not showing interest in me hurts me, don't get me wrong but I seek for your interest too, I seek for every single thing. I don't know if I'm thinking right but I want attention from you, I don't wanna sound selfish but I am. Just because I learned how to depend on you when no one else is there but a friend or two. I'm not trying to fight with you, if that's what you think. I know you're gunn bring this up but just know that other than telling you, this is another way of me venting out. I know we promised certain things to each other that I personally think helped us to get to this point of our relationship. Some of those promises is to tell each other if feelings changed, hearts are hurt, feelings are hurt, etc. I have a lot of things going in my mind right now & I know you do too. But right now you are the center of my world and if I'm not yours please let me know. I won't get mad, all i ask for you is to be honest with me. Don't you think that after what we've been through I know you by now? I do, & I know when something is up or something is wrong. I just don't want to have the thought of losing you slowly because you didn't tell me early enough. I know that you like the reassurance that I give you in every possible best way that I can, but I would like some reassurance too. I'm sorry, but baby I'm selfish.

-
ANYWAYS .. awkward, ummmmm YA UP UP UP UP UP OMG.

Honestly, RUSSEL looks like Ray when he was a little kid. I wan't a stuffed RUSSEL :) I'm so getting one if they make one.. DISNEY STORE here i come :) ♥





-DEE

HAPPPPPY 4 MONTHS BABY! :)

We made it omgaah, so much frikking hardships we went through for the past four months honestly. But I'm glad, like what Klaudine says.. That we're not fighting, that we're actually starting to know how to put up with each other. Well you at least, I know I still have mood swings here & there, & I'm sorry, you know I don't mean them.. Last night I was praying to God that hopefully we will continue to put up with each other no matter what. I know that God will give both of us the strength & patience for this.. =] I LOVE YOU !

OMG, i can't believe exams are coming up soon. I'm stressing over my CPT's & stuff like honestly, especially Religion's CPT. Oh well I'm going to make it up I don't care lol. DRAG ME TO HELL, was so scary, holy I wanted to shit my pants. I still wanna see UP, since that little boy Russel looked like Ray when he was a little kid, LOL KLAUDINE the picture :P .. I DONT CARE, i'm watching it :)

Can't wait for the weeeeeekend :) yay

AAH, college stuff.. I gotta pay so much, I'm poor, I don't want my parents paying everything, blah blah blah.. So much responsibilities to accomplish yet so little time. Good thing is I'm seeing the boyfriend today, that's the only good thing in my life. Better than nothing. I still thank God that he's helping me through every step of the way. I also want the rain to GO AWAY, little RAY wants to play :) lol. Since I know my boyfriend misses basketball already but not me, lol kidding, i love you. And please print my OSAP application things! fuck my life :(. I just can't wait til next weekend, I need to get away from all the stress that's bugging me right now.

But whatever, I should be off to doing something productive like cleaning before I go see the boyfriend :).

- DEE

ew, omg i just realized it said BLOGPOT on the top which makes me look really dumb ahah. well i am sometimes :) but whatever. We had our grade 12 retreat today, thank God it didn't rain, Me & Jamila we're praying pretty hard aha. The guy from that guest band we had were awesome especially the drummer guy lol. I haven't gotten sick of their songs & their faces even though I've seen them during grade 9 retreat, when I was a leader for this year's grade 9's and my grade 12 retreat. We won all the games we played :). But ya after everything I was exhausted like a bitch. I asked my dad to pick me up from school cuz I really NEEDED a nap. The nap that I took was noiceee, until my mom had to come in my room to look for my blow-drier, honestly we have two & she loves using my stuff. Whatever I guess I owe her anyways from losing the 300$ bracelet that she gave me =( lol plus dropping her coach bracelet & broke it unfortunately, but whatever she gave the matching necklace back which made me a bit happy hah. No school tomorrow yay, finally spending time with my boyfriend after a few days of not seeing each other. Since I've been busy with school & stuff. I so can't wait to get my G2, & I so want a car for my 18th birthday. OMG, I really gotta start working on my cosmetology exam portfolio, I started on my introduction already well I made baby write it for me :) lol. & I'm also gunn make him do everything since he's way more artistic than I am. There's like a few days of school left & I'm excited to go to college. I CANT FUCKING WAIT :) ...

oh btw Klaudine if you're reading this, sorry ..
I'm too lazy to upload lol.. love you <3


-ds

thankful..

You've got to understand that it took me a lot of courage to make myself come to the realization that everything that I've ever wanted & needed is found within you. And for me to put everything aside again, everything that you once broke, is a remarkable task that took a lot of strength & faith in me. They say sometimes people put walls up, not because they want to block people out, but because they want to see who cares enough to knock them down. You know me like no one else does because I never was able to let anyone in, & you don't even know how glad & thankful I am that I gave you the chance. You stayed at our best, yet you stuck at it at our worse, & proved to me what truth in love still has. The sky is the limit & true love really is forever.

I wanted to find a guy that'll fight for me & what I believe in. Not fight my fights, but to fight for me & fight for my love. I wanted to find someone that knows when to hold me, when to comfort me, when to hold my hand. I wanted someone that'll love me for who I am, someone that won't change me or try to. Someone that knows me inside out, not someone who thinks they do. A guy that will listen to what I have to say & try to help me out. Who would stay awake with me all night, just to hear my voice. Who would know when to give me space & understand why. Someone who wouldn't leave me & love me forever. I wanted to find a guy that'll love me & we would be together forever.

..i found it in you
I Love You Always.

- DEE

LAUREN ELIZABETH GABARRO ROMANO

for some reason, when it comes to you I'm always emotional. I decided to dedicate this one to you, hopefully you'll like it :). I was looking at my previous pictures & there were tons of me & you. Those times we would mission down to Reymar's to wake him up. Member, 'loser & a half' & 'half a loser'? lol Chris Paul is too funny huh? NOT. The times we would skip first just for the fun of it & hide in the washroom so Mr. Flynn won't see you lol. Just the stupid moments we have & all the memories that we created. Remember those old boothies? You still have them lol. I wanna let you know that whatever happened to us, it was a joy ride. An exciting ride that brought us everywhere lol, even chilling with just the randoms. I will always keep all of those with me & treasure them. The 'FAUZLE' lol, even though it's rusty & shit, I still have it. I also wanna thank you for the times you had my back, & was ready to beat up the guy that made me cry. All the realtalks we would have. The times when your dad would drive crazy & I'll be at the backseat dying lol. Looking back, I don't regret anything. I know that you're happy with our situation now, cuz I know we're making a progress right? I really hope so, well at least in my eyes. Though sometimes it seems like you could care less or I could care less. I know deep down inside that we both know that we still do care bout each other, and always goin to be there for each other. I want you to know that you can always count on me when you have problems, whenever you need to talk. I'm not here, I'm there =] lol. With everything moving so fast, I get so emotional sometimes because I miss everything. & I don't care about the others that's reading this. All I wanna say to you is always keep your head high no matter what, you're a strong girl. I LOVE YOU !

"If you can look at the sunset and smile, then you still have hope. If you can see the good in other people, then you still have hope. If you meet new people with a trace of excitement and optimism, then you still have hope. If you give people the benefit of the doubt, then you still have hope. If the suffering in others still fills you with pain, then you still have hope. If you still watch love stories or want endings to be happy, then you still have hope. If you can look at the past and smile, then you still have hope. If, when faced with bad and told everything is futile, you can still look up at the end of the conversation and say "yeah, but..." then you still have so much hope. If you still offer your hand of friendship to those who have touched your life, then you still have hope. If you refuse to let a friendship die or accept that it must end, then you, very much, still have hope."

always,
dee.♥

Watched fireworks on Sunday :) all the way at Niagara, I know you might say crazy. But it was a nice place to go to. We also checked hotels and stuff, made me walk so far *cough cough*. I thought that the fireworks were amazing & was such a romantic place just to be with my boyfriend :). After the fireworks going nuts, we decided to go to midway to play some games. OMG we got like 500+ tickets damn, that game is too addicting lol. As in addicting that we finished all the cards that was in that machine slot. As usual choosing a prize for the tickets took long, since my boyfriend can't seem to make up his mind sometimes lol. The ride home was quiet & cold, I was mad tired and as usual fell asleep again..

Yesterday was quiet exciting, went to my grandparents house.. I DROVE THERE :) i'm so proud of my self because I drove from my house to Dufferin St... than back to my house again. Didn't get to spend time with baby since he went to the movies with his fam :)..

Today, I felt like the weekend wasn't long enough. Honestly, I just can't wait to finish. Watched a movie in Religion again as usual. Test in cosmo & lesson in Chem. Everything is just usuals lol. I had my driving lesson again today as well & I did a pretty good job :)... I miss my baby, I won't be able to see him till Thursday. Friday is such a downer as well since it's wondergrad, & I won't be able to see him til Saturday.

Should I work on sunday with ian? hmmmm.. we'll see

so the week was ummm so/so, though seriously whenever it rains tear falls. I thought April showers bring May flowers? I guess it's the opposite. But whatever, we're both making progress, *knock on wood* i don't wanna jinx anything. I know, that it's going to take a lot of hard work & a lot of sacrifices to make it work. Time will also tell if things are meant to be, but I know they are :) we both know they are.. I know that hurtful words has been said & hurtful things has been done, but what can we do.. it is what it is, we gotta forget bout the past & live for our future.

Anyways, Friday didn't go to school, & baby decided to come home early from work. He picked me up & went for lunch at Erin Mills, we went to Playdium after lol, I never really appreciated what Playdium could offer until Friday, when for the first time ever I played nuff games lol. Klaudine met up with us & all of us started playing every game possible lmao. It was fun until I had to go to work.. =( Baby came over after my work then just chilled at my house. Yesterday was fun, got to spend time with family for a bit because they were seeking attention from me lol, then also got to spend time with my boyfriend. Watched Angels & Demons after walking around Yorkdale. It was such a sick movie, the places they shot the movie at was awesome.

I should go to church soon, but people in my house are loafting. I wanna watch fireworks tonight or tomorrow.. But whatevesss .. iI'll blog more later..


ds

Friday was such a funny yet so tiring day lol, Me & baby rented a movie called Old School. Trying to scare my brother with it being a horror movie when it's really a comedy hah. My brother fell asleep so he went upstairs & Baby fell asleep on my lap as well, I also fell asleep for a bit, lol. but whatever. the night was fun :).

Saturday, went to wonderland with boyfriend and omg the stupid rain sucks !! It was literally on & off for the whole day. Took some boothies that turned out really cute i must say =]. But ya back to wonderland, omg i wanted to kill my boyfriend. Asshole, dragged me to every ride when he fully knows that i'm scared of heights. Like god damn Behemoth? no one can even drag me to rides like that lol. Wild Beast hurted my head really bad. Lol baby "IM A MAN" ahahaha & screaming on my ears asshole!! but overall it was so fun. Went to eat at an all you can eat Japanese restaurant near p-mall right after we watch the movie obsessed lol. Geez baby about the spider legs.! my ass

Sunday, I worked with kuya Ian, OMG I SERIOUSLY MADE 40 of those damn things. Mother's day.

Today, I got my new phoneee yay :) no more crap phone fina-fucking-ly, i miss the boyfriend dearly.. it's so gay that I won't even be able to see him on saturday, and won't be able to spend that much time with him on friday, but it's okay there's always monday :) angels & demons :) ..

no matter what you do to me, I'm still here. for some odd reason, i stick around and put up with all your mood swings and unkind words. i just let your comments roll off me into a puddle on the floor. i make up excuses on why you didn't call, try to think of all the answers. i keep going back for more even though sometimes you push me away. i don't know if i can do better ,but do i really want to? you're quick to push me down when all i want is to be brought up. when i walk out for good, when i really gain the strength i need then maybe you will see. maybe you can look back and say, "wow that girl really did love me."

& for the record.. i need you more than anything right now, i dont want to be that dependent on someone that will never come through for me. but without you im falling, and im scared that you will be the only one that can ever catch me, and im scared that you will never be there to do that.

dedicated to you ..

I haven't updated in awhile,I think ever since April 27th? not sure but yaa. This is hopefully gunn be a long, I also decided to dedicate this post to my one & only Ray Anthony. But before everything, I should update with the things I haven't updated in awhile.. I've been busy with school things, work things, & such things. Too much bills to pay, I also changed my phone & number, =] which pisses me off, cuz I wanna change my phone again. The situation with the best friend have been okay lately, things have been loosening up a bit & it makes me happy cuz it's a progress :). The weather lately is sooo frikking beautiful, I just can't wait to finish school. I've been skipping too much, either I'm exhausted from the night before, or lazy, or spending time with boyfriend, or sick. Right now I'm sick, but don't worry guys I don't have that swine flu thing. Lol. I've also been doing my driving lessons, and yeeee my instructor already booked my G2, on June 9th, EXCITEEEEEEED. Anyways I should really get into my dedication part huh? =] this might not makes sense since im out of it today but meeh, it's the thought that counts right?

First of all, Happy belated 3 months.. wow can you believe it? it's been three months & it feels like forever, not saying it's a bad thing, but it's a good thing when it comes to a realization of what we've been through, three months is long lol. I know people will probably say oh ya no that's only three months, it's nothing, but in this case, no one knows but me & you. I wanna recall all the memories I can recall from day one. Remember that night at Timmies, when we watched unborn? The night we both can't forget, knowing that we haven't seen each other for awhile felt really nice when all the awkwardness between us was replaced with laughter & joy huh? & member Lauren calling me, & she was drunk? aha. The talks we would have bout me & you being together after that. I didn't wanna give in just because I thought I was going to get hurt once again. You did all anything to win my heart, from singing to me until I fall asleep, meeting my parents, picking me up, listening to me while I cry from my problems with my mom or my best friend, help me out with my stressful life, etc. Soon enough I gave in, FEB 1 2009, perfect day, perfect time, perfect everything =]. I'd never forget that day, you picked me up from my house during breakfast aha, & that's when everything began. I know our first month was good, but we had our ups & downs as well. Remember Valentine's day? when we didn't know whether to stay here or go to Niagara, but we ended up going anyways =P. I thank you for that day because no one ever did something like that for me ever. You already know all the memories we've built after that. Going bowling is always fun with you :), then eating at the infamous Denny's afterward lol. Playing ball has also never been so much fun with anyone, cuz you actually play with me unlike the others that has no patience. Watching your games, & being proud of you makes me so happy :). When you would just chill with my brother, I find it so cute that even my parents wants him calling you kuya. I must say that all the things we have gone through makes me really proud of me & you. They say that the first months are the happiest, but in our case it's surely not lol. I have cried a whole lot of tears just to let this one go. I know that the past week has been really iffy for the both of us, but what happened? we got through it again. I'm so settled. I wanna let you know that I have, I do, & always will try my best to be patient with you & try to understand where you're coming from. I'm also sorry for the things I have said & done that jeopardized this relationship. I'm also asking for you to do the i think two things I asked from you. I know it takes time, & I am waiting. I know we're gunn get through all of this hand in hand. I just also ask for you not to do shady things like .. ill keep it to myself, but you know what i mean. Like what i said, i'm not up for games, so please be serious bout me as well. I love you. ♥

that like didn't make sense at all. (N) but i hope you liked it :)..


always,
dee

aaah, today i had to go to school just because i have to lol. I'm feeling so grumpy lately and sorry for the people that are affected, *coughcough* baby lol. They were even teasing me at school about being a gator because I was snapping, like gosh shut up :) it's okay I love y'all. My head phones broke for some reason but I'll fix them. I saw what Lauren did to herself because of the whole situation and seriously best imma cut off your nails soon. OMG, I screwed up on my Religion test today lmao, I literally left the whole thing blank. The teacher was making fun of me cuz of that, but whatever, at least I gave in the bonus part which was my notes and it was 15 points lol. Lunch was fun, we kept playing president and I kept losing, then I kept winning. Mine & Lauren's speed game was not very speedy lmao. Cosmo was fun, we had a presentation from the head professor & two students of Marca College. From what I saw Marca is such a good college for Hair & Esthetics, which makes me think of wanting to go there now, 8 gran for one year, it's pretty okay huh? well it's a private college. Chemistry test tomorrow, but class today is so funny, everyone started talking bout the website FML lmao it's too jokes because our teacher is like our friend & laughs with us. I literally wanted to pee, and everyone kept making me laugh. But whatever is clever.

I'm so excited to see baby tonight :) I miss him, & I just wanna have a chill afternoon/night-ish with him, since i've been being grumpy lately lol. 2 DAYS BABE :) <3 I can't wait. LOVE YOU LOTS!



- dee

Since I stayed home today I decided I was gunna change mine & baby's layout I needed a simple one cuz yaa. I'll prolly change mine again soon. Anyways I slept last night & woke up to an unbearable tummy ache. So I decided to stay home, I know I told myself I wasn't going to skip anymore but I can't possibly go to school like this especially it's a liturgy schedule. Me & him had such a good 'realtalk' this morning while on his way to work, about all the stuff we've been through, and our past relationships and stuff. It's so refreshing & it's such a great feeling knowing that I'm the first girl he's had a serious relationship with. I'm glad that he's taking this seriously like how I am taking it as well. I think that praying to God every night for this helped. It helped that it's amusing that no matter how stubborn we both are, no matter how opposite we are from each other, and no matter how hard the challenges that we face, we still both are here caring & holding on to each other. All in all everything is great :). Anyways I gotta get ready, it's so ugly outsideee gross & I have to drive in this kind of weather? sheeesh-ka-bob.

aaaah, today was um an okay day. What a 'SWIT' day once again except for the fact that i'm not on the schedule for work. WTH, I looked at the schedule & there was only 3 people on the stupid thing like.. But whatevs I gotta call my manager & see what's up. I decided to go to the doctors alone after checking my schedule just because I was being nice to my mom :) she was sick so I decided that she didn't need to come with me. I was there from the time baby left union station until he got there to pick me up. Like that was prolly like an hour.. holy chamoly.. But thanks baby for picking me up and coming with me to the doctor lol we'll keep whatever the doctor said a secret :). I have no choice but to drink medicine & follow what he said. "wow, you're in your work shoes with dress pants & north stars t-shirt?" LMFAO sorry I just had to make fun of you on that one ;) it's all love. At least I got to see baby today and I got to pinch him cuz of the silly things he did. Spent a little more time with him until he had to go to ball practice =( I was sad but at the same time it made me happy since I was bummy from my schedule at work. Was supposed to get our land pass today but no cuz I finished at the doctors around 7, which was very gay like my boyfriend lol.

Anyways, KLAUDINE ... SHE'S MURKED :) <3 lol

gotta do homework which is another bummer while waiting for boyfriend to finish ball practice.


- dee

WHAT A 'SWIT' DAY..

URGH, I worked yesterday & I woke up late this morning so imma go to school soon. At least I get to take a nap cuz I got work tonight again boo.. It's such a nice day out, frikking 22 degrees but apparently it's gunn rain in the afternoon. Work was okay, it's so chill, Kuya Ian, Greg, & Linda passed by making fun of me cuz I look so crap on my uniform lol. I'm scared to work alone next week cuz I really don't know my stuff yet but it takes time for me to get used to it. I literally fell asleep on the phone with Ray last night, sorry baby I was tired lol. But I was so hyper when I got home wasn't I? =P Too bad baby couldn't pick me up from work yesterday, I wanted to see him but it's kay cuz he's picking me up tonight =) & I'm excited to see him :). It's such a SWIT day outside right babe? LMFAOOO. sorry I told you I was gunna put it lmfao. Oh man Humber Test tmrw & I'm scared I really don't know my Bio things but whatever :) I get to spend time with my baby tomorrow :) perhaps Yorkdale? Downtown? whereever, as long as im with you =]. I'm so mad that you're done school & I still got few more months left. Now you can skip work & surprise me all the time ;) lol. Anyways I shall nap & continue this later..

- dee

P.S.
I MISSSSSS YOURE ASSHOLENESS BABE :)
it's all love. love youuuu!